i'm t-i-r-e-d

fine night- this whole week and last week i've been struggling with my assignments where i can't really enjoy the drama i'm watching, concentrate in class. and not enough rest as all of you aware i'm sort of "pig". all the dark circles around my eyes,pimples and so on is coming out...oh god....I'm just in diploma though so i guess when I'm in degree it will whole lot tougher...currently I'm so attached to prison break..until i manage to finish the 3 seasons in just 10 days time i think. if i don't have assignments i think it will be a lot faster. *giggles*. the each and everyone in the series are so good in terms of the character they are acting !!! and another funny things is i "discover" Michael Scolfield (Wentworth Miller) face in some kind of posters around INTI..I'm having doubt whether it was him. hopefully all the efforts that i put in doing the assignments will be having a good outcome..I felt that everything started to be different in some way especially my jazz class that i attend one week once...we're not that close anymore i think just have a doubt that am i too sensitive or it just happened that way? I'm LOST !

The first concert that I've attended ( JAY CHOU )

Me and Katrina before the concert started !!!

whoohoo Jay playing the piano !!!!

Sob this is the nearest i can zoom with my camera !!

After the concert ended !! everyone is walking slowly !!!

The ticket and the "fan" thingy !!!

I'm Stressful When .....

fine night- I just realized today there was approximately around 5 assignments that I gotta do for the course work marks. God damn it I thought I can have some break after my test one but it seems that's a big NO for me. Even most of it are work in a group but still that was kinda burden though. Time is real precious for me even more for me now. But it doesn't be a big deal if I got a good time management. I'm kinda excited though for going the first ever concert in my life. I wish to remember the date ( 23rd Feb 2008). Just now I did read Jesslyn's blog where just posted on few days back. It seems life being hard over Aussie. But anyway as time goes by I think she can cope with it. Everything that happens in our life is just the matter of time anyway. When I calculated the amount that I going to owe to the government's loan is around 80K ++. Holy mama that's h-u-g-e- amount it seems but for my future I don't have any other choice for that. I always dream to try something new in my life once I completed my degree. Sometimes even I'll laugh at myself with the dream I got. Is kinda ridiculous anyway. But still if one day it can come true then maybe I'll start to believe in. *giggles*

Disappointment

Windy and cold night- This month makes me really feel a sense of disappointment. Even though is not a big one but still it was a disappointment to me. I don't have the guts to do it again perhaps I guess the motivation has just disappear. And another thing that I dislike was the one who said will do but end up forgotten. The feeling makes me feel they are so irresponsible. Not a big deal but I just want something that has been said been done as well. About sister and going to be bro-in-law makes me view life in different angle. In this world really have people who will take advantage on friends EXTREMELY. Oh gosh ! It sounds pathetic when it really happens on you or close people around you. I'm wondering what if I myself have this kind of friend. Talking about friends I just realized that I'm not the first place anymore...Am I too sensitive? Sorry,even me also got no idea what's going on.Chinese new year seems makes me "see" more people and realize how good those people are "acting" in front everybody. Wow it fascinates me ! Can't care much about all that as that was none of my business though. Having tests for three days this week so bad ! especially MKT. I spent lot of time revising just a small portion ! Just so fed up when I'm getting blur ! Being single for 6 months already reminds me of many memories. I just felt that each relationship that I had will last till my birthday or any other remarkable days. But nice thing being single is do not need to feel bad when someone is being angry, can be more focus on other stuff and so forth. Hopefully the next Mr. Right I have is the one who will last. I once heard people said that A and B were together. B left A to "catch" C. In the end B lost BOTH. The other day when I'm back to grandma house grandma said to sister that Why we didn't call back to ask how are they...But sis was wondering when we just shifted out ten years ago did anyone ask how are us? The feeling of difficulty really in me that time. Me,mom,bro and sis were eating instant noodles for the whole week. I even vomit. ! But did anyone of them ask how are us? We're so broke to even have a gas stove ! I really felt so glad that Mom and Sis work so hard to raise us up. I'm trying my level best to respect them even sometimes I'll yell at them but I don't mean it,seriously. Each time I try and I fail is making me more TOUGH. Tough in the sense of being smarter next time after each time of stupidity. Feel better I can burst in here.

An unexpected motivation !

Fine night- I should write this blog ages ago because I got a feeling where I feel like entering the broadcasting world ! No matter is broadcasting or acting ! This feeling was all over me now and then I got no reason for it. Is kind of bothering me in some way though. But I believe if after I've completed my studies I feel like doing it I should go ahead with it ! I feel like attends some class where experienced people will teach to act like pronouncing the words properly and so... But the day seems to be remote for me but I'm trying to work to it maybe in few years time. It sounds kind of funny in here but the motivation I have I think can make me go through it ! Maybe this is my long term Goal...I'm just trying to visualize it ! =)