Holiday

Cloudy noon- Holiday for weeks already and basically didn't have much fun besides staying at home in front of the desktop and grow 'mushroom'. Occasionally going out with my sweetheart and that's basically the most fun I could have. Just got back from Viet yesterday and today night got to work already. I feel so lost mentally nowadays especially this coming weekend where I got to work in Jusco Cheras Selatan. Sometimes I just don't understand how can disorganize manage to survive on this earth ! I don't meant to offend anyone I just feel unease when I got to work with those people. Perhaps I just have to strengthen my adaptability level in order to get the most out of it.

I think is going to rain soon since I heard loud thundering sound. And I don't know what I got to do in this 7 hours before my work starts. I got a random thought sometimes wondering when a person tell you s/he loves you, do s/he really meant it? A big question mark here and there. In the latest trip to Viet, it makes me think that marriage and giving birth are really like a set of gamble session where you just put everything in and it could turn out to be a really good or bad one. *grins* Well all this kind of random feeling do come once in a while especially when I miss somebody ! Have a nice day people ! =)

Bored Saturday

Fine night- Holiday officially started last Saturday 4pm since that was the time I sit for my last paper. And the very next day I went out with my special one already. Well days passed and I just went for an interview at Captivate yesterday. Everything goes pretty well I would say and I got to call in on next Wednesday to check on my status. Seriously I've been a little worried to start work again in C Beach cafe. It's been a while since I last worked as a waitress and God knows what clumsy stuff I would do on the very first day.

Long holiday seems to be bored. I found that it was a little sarcastic when my closed one said so. Well I think I need to figure out something to fix it. People tend to say I can't pick up hints and yet they're giving me way too much but why not just throw it right in front of me? It's better to be sad for once than being tortured mentally. And people worry I might not accept it but instead of worrying then why not talk to me? It's been so tired to get ignored and yeah I am a really sensitive person, so what? I am just who I am and I don't understand why no one is willing to tell what's wrong with me. Just keep on saying 'I've changed", 'I don't understand' wouldn't help a single thing at all. Instead all that will just make me more miserable and screwed up. I think I just got to take the fact that people comes and goes.

Am I starting to get 'blind' or what? I become more and more less aware who's trying to play a game with me. Or I'm just too tired to even care of who's doing so? No point of reminiscing old time when it bring so much pain ! I love you all who stay with me when I needed you all the most. God bless you all !