24 hours

Hot afternoon- 24 hours from now I should be in the airport saying goodbye to someone who is close to me. And saying goodbye is not an easy thing where basically people will have all kinds of mixed feeling hunting over them over and over again. I guess this year is the year I'm going to say 'goodbye' the most. Perhaps to other people, saying goodbye is an easy stuff but definitely would not be me. With all those mixed feeling hunting me over and over again really killing my concentration on my notes. But I'm trying my level best to balance up the stuffs which had already threw to me. I don't know how long I can take all this before I burst out. God bless my OM test and finals which will be around the corner. I seriously need a good buddy to talk to right now ! *sigh*

The 'first' phrase

Fine morning- Surprisingly, today ECO test I think I did better than my previous test. *applause* I was so worried when I slept last night since I didn't really study much but what to do since I'm so tired to get my brain functions I just hop onto my cozy bed...*giggles*

I've had a hectic weekend last week and is a total fun night I had on Saturday. I was glad that I can joined in that event ! I wanted to upload picture on that night but I haven't got the pictures yet so be patient everyone ! Is normal clubbing pictures BUT is a little different in terms of people I'm going with. =) When I had my breakfast just now, I was like 'testing' you by saying I need to buy something important and the first phrase you said have indeed proof to me that you're different from what I expected. Different as in negative side. I thought you could be a little more supportive as my buddy. But the very first phrase has already disappoint me. *ouch* I need a dose of reassurance and supportive assurance from my buddies not doubts and chaos. I takes friendship and understanding as the most crucial part in us, and I really really disappointed that you've blurt out something that you think there's no big deal but it means a lot to me. I'm not angry or being sensitive, no worries we are still BFF. !

Hectic week

Fine night- I've been quite busy the whole week since I managed to complete my last 2 assignments and 2 tests. Late night like now makes me think a lot of things that made me so emotional ! That type of emo which makes me feels like crying. *sigh* I'm so speechless now that my tears are rolling down my cheeks. I feel like talking to someone that knows me pretty well right now ! I still have an economics test this coming Monday and Operations Management test on Thursday. Oh gosh I'm wondering can I ever study for so many chapters for a test ! I have loads of things that I felt like burst out but where to start and how to start I'm totally out of idea. God bless me !

Busyness !

Fine night- I'm suppose to be busy these two weeks but hell no with what I'm doing and wondering here. I've completed my last two assignments and now all I got to do is start my revision for 4 tests which are coming on this week as well as next week. Since next week, I'll be busy back at my place, so I guess this weekend is so crucial for me to do some revision. But to study 8 chapters for next Thursday test somehow make me thinks, that's so impossible. And guess what the 8 chapters given, I don't really know what's mainly about even though the extra guideline has been given..I'm glad that I can finish my assignments ahead of time but I'm sad to know that I can't really ask my little brain to 'digest' the notes that I've been reading through..

This whole week it seems I can't get some 'alone' time with someone who is leaving pretty soon. As in so soon..It reminds me of what someone told me before. And this is the time both of us are going to lead the different path of our life. And I wish the someone good luck and all the best. Actually is been kinda emotional here since many people who are close to me are leaving me one by one. And it really feels so bad to adapt with it ! I cry myself to sleep all these night and I'm really really sad ! If not mistaken, Joann is leaving this year too which means I can't loiter with a good buddy for quite some time ! All close friends are leaving ~ Sad sad !

My two tests for this week seriously I'm going to flop it if I still can't concentrate on my revision. Maybe you guys will think,'come on what's the big deal'?..No worries you will know it when you have the same situation happen to you. I really really wanted to go out for a drink and a dance session ! I WANT IT BADLY ! That's my dose to at least let me feel a little better...HELP !

Do something you like or something you should?

Fine night- I've been doing quite a lot of thinking stuffs lately. As I'm hesitating shall I continue to pursuing a degree or do something for a job that I've been thinking since I'm young. Sometimes by weighing the pros and cons itself can tear me apart ! At first I was thinking I can take up a three days job for the coming PC fair but is just days before my finals. I'm worry I can't cope that's why I've gave up the chance to work. Which means I've lost an opportunity to earn some extra bucks. *sigh* Seriously I need to have a get-a-way real soon to ease all this kind of thinkings. I don't need an expensive trip but I think a good spot to clear up thinkings would do ! The very last time that me and Joann went to the airport seriously was a good one to talk things out! I think I shall call it 'the moment of reminiscing' ~~ *giggles*

Another semester to go to think what course that I really wanted to do for my degree. And I'm weighing the pros and cons whether to do IB or Finance...Actually I've already have a pre-decision on taking IB..Perhaps I need a little longer time to do the confirmation...Hectic week ahead next week where there are two tests and assignments deadline. This semester I seriously don't enjoy much with the workloads yet I still have to complete it ! God bless me ! Good night !

You shouldn't have said that to me

Fine night- After I've told you what's going on I somehow think that you shouldn't have said that indirectly harmful phrase to me. I take you as the closest friend I have and I didn't ask for much and even though I know you didn't really mean what you've said but there's possibility for misinterpretation to happen. And I'm glad that I just burst it in here to soothe my emotions. And while looking through the photos of my so called dad, there are a lot of mixed feeling haunting over me. He's so irresponsible yet he's the one of the involved people to bring me into this world. I'm not sure what I'm going to do after next semester but I'm sure I won't give up ! And you dad, you totally made your little girl frustrated and upset. You all may blame me for being inconsiderate and disrespectful but I got nothing much to say besides doing what I should.

I am trying really hard to balance up everything and I just realised that I'm not doing so good in balancing. The days are near and I hope you have a safe journey ahead and good luck for you future endeavors !

I'm bored !

Cold night- I'm suppose to have better thing to do instead of telling everyone I'm so bored ! I have another two assignments to be completed for this semester. Tests and presentations are killing me ! And on the other day I did a personality test in Facebook where the result seems to be quite accurate.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

- Can be accepted

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

- This sounds a little 'WOW'....

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

- I doubt about this one

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

- ?? Flirt and behave seductively? Oh Gosh, since when?

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

- so true !

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

- wondering still...

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

- Should learn on this...

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

- I'm concerned about my image but I think I'm not over doing it ~

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

- This is another so true fact of me ! *giggles*

Some of it seems to be quite accurate yet there are some that makes me wonder to what extent it is true....Anyway I think life changes a lot these days.. Sometimes I doubt that is God looking too high on me by throwing obstacles I probably could not handle? God knows ! =)

Pissed off morning

Fine night- Today my day started off with getting screw and ended up that particular someone did not apologize even though I think he should. Come on we're leaving in what century now? We are not studying in a military class so I think he shouldn't reacted that way. What happened today made me recalled the old memories when I was in secondary school. *giggles* Basically I don't mind he barked like a dog but what for? The circumstances were far more serious than you can imagined of. I'm wondering why that particular person did not finished up reading before screwing people. I'm so sorry for K as I've misunderstood what she written. Seriously I have yelled back if I'm still in secondary school. *grins*

And to another someone, don't take people for granted. You're busy with your stuffs, so do I. But somehow I think that's very nice of me to ask how are you and so but you didn't seems to appreciate any of that. That's good ! Wait till I say, hey you F**k off ! Basically the mixtures of every incidents happened today made me so screwed up where I skipped one class without reason for the very first time in these ten weeks of studying. That's why Chinese often believes that morning should not have any unpleasant situations where it might influence people for that whole day. Called me SUPERSTITIOUS as you wish . =)

So sick of it

Windy night- I'm supposing to start working on my two last assignments which are going to due in 2 weeks time. But somehow I got so distracted perhaps I'm so tired till my brain can't function properly. I'm not distracted because of I'm watching dramas though. I'm distracted on many other stuffs which had been bothering me for a quite long time. And it was pretty obvious that I look different nowadays where I seldom will have a friendly smile on my face. I got to know it through the replied of one of the Facebook's notes. *sigh* Anyway I'm still trying my level best to start on my assignments so I won't have any problem when the due date is near. This month is really a crucial one for me in managing my precious time. I'm currently so sleepy where I wish I can just hop onto my cozy bed !

Owhhhh YES !

sunny afternoon- Well well i finally did it! I guess you guys will wonder what I want to brag about this time. And i want to say I've finally donated blood for the VERY FIRST TIME ! I've been hesitated for 5 semesters whether to donate or not as I worry I'll gained weight after that ! Which makes me selfishly consider for such a long time. Anyway,I'm happy and a little disappointed at the same time. I'm happy because I'm finally doing it and a little disappointed since is only 180ml ! I think that's the amount after taking out some for samples purpose. The target according to my weight was 350ml though. The nurse can't help much since she said my blood flow is slow and not willing to flow out. I was giggling there when I heard what she said. Since my blood flow was slow, I actually need 3 nurses to help me in the whole process. One need to keep pumping 'the thing' which will squeeze my arm hard enough to create pressures while another one is holding the packet where my blood is flowing into it to make sure whether the blood is entering or otherwise. The third nurse is tapping my arteries and adjusting the hose to see which position is the easiest for my blood to flow out. She even turned the 'blue thingy' to adjust the flow which made me feel the needle is turning here and there ! *scary* Anyway when the nurse asked 'Is this your first time' ? I replied 'Yeah' and she said no wonder maybe I haven't get used to it. And I felt a bit relieved since I thought is abnormal to have a slow blood flow.

After getting about half of the packet the nurses finally stopped everything and said it was enough and not to force the blood to flow out since it may cause my arm to become swollen. She asked me to rest a while and pressed the cotton firmly where they poked the needle in. While resting, the nurse told me my blood will expired pretty early as in 14 days since the amount of my blood is not enough to merge with the contents inside the packet which cause it to be imbalance. But she did said no worries we'll use it before it gets expired. Well after getting enough of rest, the nurse walk over with a plaster and a cream thingy. After she had placed the plaster, she applied the cream thingy too as my arm already started to swell. My arm felt numb for quite a while though. I asked my classmate, Yew Hong to take some pictures for memory sake. *grins*










P/s: Come on everyone, overcome your fear and help people by donating your blood.