Disappointment

Windy and cold night- This month makes me really feel a sense of disappointment. Even though is not a big one but still it was a disappointment to me. I don't have the guts to do it again perhaps I guess the motivation has just disappear. And another thing that I dislike was the one who said will do but end up forgotten. The feeling makes me feel they are so irresponsible. Not a big deal but I just want something that has been said been done as well. About sister and going to be bro-in-law makes me view life in different angle. In this world really have people who will take advantage on friends EXTREMELY. Oh gosh ! It sounds pathetic when it really happens on you or close people around you. I'm wondering what if I myself have this kind of friend. Talking about friends I just realized that I'm not the first place anymore...Am I too sensitive? Sorry,even me also got no idea what's going on.Chinese new year seems makes me "see" more people and realize how good those people are "acting" in front everybody. Wow it fascinates me ! Can't care much about all that as that was none of my business though. Having tests for three days this week so bad ! especially MKT. I spent lot of time revising just a small portion ! Just so fed up when I'm getting blur ! Being single for 6 months already reminds me of many memories. I just felt that each relationship that I had will last till my birthday or any other remarkable days. But nice thing being single is do not need to feel bad when someone is being angry, can be more focus on other stuff and so forth. Hopefully the next Mr. Right I have is the one who will last. I once heard people said that A and B were together. B left A to "catch" C. In the end B lost BOTH. The other day when I'm back to grandma house grandma said to sister that Why we didn't call back to ask how are they...But sis was wondering when we just shifted out ten years ago did anyone ask how are us? The feeling of difficulty really in me that time. Me,mom,bro and sis were eating instant noodles for the whole week. I even vomit. ! But did anyone of them ask how are us? We're so broke to even have a gas stove ! I really felt so glad that Mom and Sis work so hard to raise us up. I'm trying my level best to respect them even sometimes I'll yell at them but I don't mean it,seriously. Each time I try and I fail is making me more TOUGH. Tough in the sense of being smarter next time after each time of stupidity. Feel better I can burst in here.