In trouble

Sunny afternoon- Well after checking my account book I've just realized that PTPTN did not bank in money for the coming semester's fee. After some calculation, I'm so DEAD due to I'll still need extra thousand plus to settle May 2009 semester...! Apparently, I don't have any extra bucks now. Thinking for possible alternatives right now and it seriously distracting me when I'm practicing exam pieces. End up I'm updating my blog here and still thinking hard on what's the possible alternative. Oh gosh 2008 doesn't seems is the best year for me but at least it is so much better as to compare to 2007. Anyway this is what we called life and we often have unforeseen problems and matters coming all along to SPICE up our life. I'm still having a little doubt on the decisions I've made recently. Perhaps I just don't have enough confident with myself in selecting what I think it is right. I have 1001 things running through my brain right now which really spoil my mood to do what I'm doing just now.

Yesterday I went to Metro Point to see Bosco Wong !! Well he really can sings based on his first new released EP which is quite reasonable to have one. I think he's the first Hong Kong actor who came to Kajang to promote his EP. I was so excited when I saw him for the first time ! But if Jay is coming I think I'll be crazy already. *giggles* I felt so contented with what I have now, and I would like to thank everyone for making this happen ! I shall continue practice for a while before going out for a swimming session with friends.

May all of you have a wonderful new year eve this year to welcome 2009, Another Excited Year to Be...=)

Friendship

Fine night- As promised I shall update my blog real soon but ended up today only I'm free to update. Well nothing much about these few weeks. I stopped working in La Senza, I shop quite much and finally I'm broke. *giggles* But what to do chinese new year is just around the corner so to pamper myself for using my holiday wisely I bought all those stuffs as a gift for myself. *lame reason* =)

I really didn't think that I can be friend again with my long lost friend, PP ! It sounds a little weird huh? Is been more or less three years that we didn't talk to each other due to changes of attitudes that I have which makes her feels annoyed. But all this got clear up as I believe some of my friends did persuade her to change her mind. I'm really glad to have her back as my friend, really I do appreciate it. When someone treating you good, we shouldn't take it for granted as all this might disappear the next minute. We'll never know right? I am really thankful for what I own now.

Mini Trip ~~

Sunny day- Well I went to Genting with my high school mates earlier of this month. Well the most unexpected part was because of a long lost friend SUGGESTED me to join in. That's was the most unexpected part for me though. Anyway things seems to be turning out to the positive side. Well I'm not feeling too well right now so I think I'll continue in the next post..stay tuned..

bad day~

Fine night- This morning was an usual morning for me where i get ready to go to work and have breakfast before shop opens.unfortunately hours after that I got severe headache, diarrhea and vomited. The moment I stepped out Mid Valley it started to rain heavily. Oh gosh I felt so weak and dizzy to continue walking towards the station even though it was so near. Anyhow I manage to board the train and back to Kajang. My supervisor said to me, 'you really need to go back'? I stunned there for a moment because she didn't even bother what's my condition all she asked was only that. Well I understood the fact that there's not enough staffs at the moment but keeping there it will not help at all. Seriously I lose respect to the seniors that are working over there since in my opinion I think somehow they are not so professional.

About some other thing that's bothering me is I don't know how long it will last but my current principle is everything happen for a reason. This was told by one of my friend that I deeply admired. The way he thinks stuffs are really awesome. I shall go to bed early tonight or else I won't recover soon enough. The sad thing is I got to work on Saturday. Holiday seems to pass by so fast. One of my friend said before what you can learn by becoming a sales promoter? Well when you got a chance to be one then you'll know.

Off Day

Fine afternoon- At last I manage to have two days off from work. Well, these few weeks were really a total new environment for me. I met a lot of 'interesting' people. There always pros and cons when we're going to talk on one's behavior. Those who thought that they're intelligent will constantly direct you to do this and do that, yet they might have no authority to do so.

Anyhow, I'm trying my best to adapt to it. So far what I've been through really was a great thing to 'educate' me. The way one communicate with others seriously need a high amount of respect in order others will listen. I've been thinking what should i do lately. I meant the decision that I need to do. What should it be? I thought I'll have pretty much thing to write now since I didn't update my blog for quite some time but seriously instead of crapping over here I got nothing to write to express my emotion now. I'm a little angry, sleepy, moody and disappointed right now. So I think a good nap can help to make me a little happy again.

Feels bad

Fine night- After a bowl of soup i felt better as in don't feel like craving for other snack.. Just now I nearly set my house on fire since I forgot to turn off the stove. Lucky me out of sudden I can remember. Or else, I can't imagine though. I've watched Quantum of Solace ! *giggles* This will happen when someone is too bored and unemployed YET ! These few days I think I'm having constipation though. I got no idea why maybe I ate a lot or didn't consume enough of fluid. *wondering*

I've been going out started from last Saturday up to today. Wow ! But just during afternoon not night. God bless me for next Tues interview, and hope to get another Mon-Fri job which I've already filled up the application form. My friend didn't call me up for a while now I hope everything is fine over there. When human do have extra time they tend to think more. Sounds familiar to anyone of you all? *giggles* Just came to me out of nowhere. I think tonight I shall sleep slightly 'early' since tomorrow need to go town again.

latest update of me !

Fine night- After my final paper on Saturday, I haven't really get adequate sleep till now. Everyday waking up so early ( 10 plus). AS for Saturday, I've spent few hours to help Ah Wei in her photo shooting session. Just hope that she can gets good marks. On Sunday as usual went for jazz class and met up with Nicole for lunch. Came home around 2 plus then went out to town again. *giggles* The reason for going out again is really marvelous- SHOPPING ! But as all the Kajang people know, what can we shop in Kajang town right? I ended up shop in Parkson just to finish up the vouchers my mom and aunt accumulated the other day when they bought skin care product in Sg. Wang.

Monday went out for a facial session in the afternoon, dinner at my bestie's house and went to Times Square with my friend. As for today, I woke up and went out for brunch with Nicole and went to settle my driving license opposite Metro Kajang. Finally I went home when it was raining heavily and it started to flood in some area around my Sg. Chua. *scary* I think the rain just started less than an hour but it already start flooding. Who knows Kajang one day will be known as 'Kajang Island' instead of Kajang Satay. *giggles*

P/s: All the Kajang people don't whack me for the constructive criticism I've made! *grins*

I'm done with semester 5 !

Hot afternoon- Phew finally I'm relieved that I've passed this semester ! Among all three papers the most I am not confident in is the finance paper. This make me think twice on should I continue major in it when I come to degree. Time not much left and I'm suppose to have an answer by now though. Perhaps this two months can make me have a better thought.

The other day I did something that was so 'wrong', I shouldn't follow my guts though because it could made people misunderstood on the whole thing. After all I'm whole lot better after telling you all I'm suppose to, to clear things up at least. I don't want the misunderstanding between us will leave a big scar behind. My friend called just now and I suddenly got pissed off when he said 'S might said something hurtful if you meet me'. I didn't force you to meet anyway. I'm just wondering what make you feel so worry about that? There's always ridiculous reason behind you. Come on I don't give it a damn after all. Oh well the spammer (lok) is back to my blog again. I'm so free, so let's the game STARTS !

Hot weather !

Fine afternoon- AS usual I was planning to upload some pictures to this post but it was not successful though. The weather for now make me so moody!! I just had a cold shower but not long after that I began sweating again..*sigh* These few days were really miserable for me though ! On Sunday I headache for hours and vomited few times and on Monday I had a minor cut on my hand. Nevertheless, I still went out for movie ! *chuckles*

On Monday I had a nice lunch with my relatives and family in Noble House. Then at night I went to MV for a movie, Max Payne. Overall it was only an average movie but I'm sure this will be whole lot better than flight of the living dead. Practically I have less than 48 hours to study for my final yet I'm still sitting here doing nothing. This semester seriously doesn't motivate me at all. I don't know why that's happening but I hope what I get for the result wouldn't be THAT BAD ! Will be back after my final ends.. Good luck for all of you who are sitting for examinations and all the best ! Have a great day everyone...=)

Better

Fine midnight- I'm suppose to sleep at this timing yet I'm still awake just to post up something over here..So today I had my final test for this semester before next week final examinations. Today test I can assured myself that I'm going to flop ! WHY ? Thanks to my level of knowledge in Cost accounting. Seriously I get really confused with all those fixed cost, OAR,variable cost and etc. It seems that there's no particular term for that particular word ! It can be known as X, Y or maybe Z as well. *headache*

Today I was having my final class for my ENL too. Well I will surely miss and appreciate the way an old lady who is so dedicated to share what she knows. She's good overall is just that her style don't really compatible with the current needs' of the student like ME. *giggles* Today when I'm on the way back I started to feel nausea ! Once I reach home less than 15 minutes I've already lied down on my bed to get some rest!! At night, I went to night market with my buddies Kat and CS. Well I think that was our first time going to night market together !! *Wondering* Should get some sleep now...

After Few Attempts

Fine night- Well initially I wanted to post up pictures in this post but too bad the connection in my hostel doesn't allow me to do so. *sigh* I've tried a few times but still failed. So I think you guys should just check out my facebook for the latest pictures (Jessie's wedding).

Well she's one of my sister's friend. I know her brother since we were in primary school then recently I've been following my sister to her school mates gathering so we eventually are friends so she invited me for her wedding dinner..So nice of her...=) Well basically the food is better than OTHER hotel's food and the ambience was pretty good. Not forget to mention Jessie looked gorgeous in all her dresses ! I can assured you she's really sizzling HOT yesterday !!

I was a little pissed off on last Saturday since I can't online for the WHOLE day ! Well it was really the end of the world for me though. Well I think is a good thing also since I can accompany my mom to watch TV in the living room instead of facing the monitor whole day. There are always pros and cons huh? *chuckles*

I'm currently having stomachache ! I guess I ate too much for my dinner ! *giggles* Hopefully I don't diarrhea during midnight or something...God bless me....=p

Little toe

Fine night- Today I'm LUCKY enough to get screw in the morning and get a knock on my fourth toe which basically ruined my day ! My little toe is still in pain. Anyway, I went on with my initial plan no matter how the starting was. C supposed to tell me what's tomorrow's plan but till now he haven't contact me yet. Guess he forgot though. I suppose to have more time to practice since I got home yesterday but it seems that is still the same. I'm not that motivated. I ended up doing other thing after a short while I'm sitting there.

This afternoon after my lunch I went to temple. Didn't plan that at first but just feel like going . When I'm on my way to temple was already drizzling out there. There's many people still in the temple even though was already late afternoon. I reached home about 3 plus and have a quick shower before practicing what I'm suppose to. Not even one hour I started to get distracted and asked my bro to get out from my room so I can have some nap ! He got pissed off and get out...*evil grin*

My exam is just around the corner yet I still don't have the mood to get started. Oh Gosh ! As usual huh? SCARY !! I still have pretty much events for coming weekend as well as this weekend. Next Thursday I'll still have another test. My other classmates were wondering how come my DEAR lecturer put it on the next week which suppose to be a study week. Well I answered ' PIG doing things, what can you expect?'
WHooppss...

Lovely

Raining evening- I was watching some Singapore's movie (money no enough 2). I heard it was a meaningful movie. Well finally I have the time to watch it. With all the Hokkien I can barely understand if they speak too fast ! *chuckles* But overall I'm still able to understand. Some part is really touching !

Today I got back my finance's marks. Is sad to look how careless am I. Is still raining out there. I think I'm getting gradually better . Is that a good news?

Talents

Fine night- Just now Enkhzul sent me a link on David Sides who is so good in playing all the RnB and pop songs. The songs that you never think of can be played by using a piano ! That's my own opinion only though. Here's the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EH8mNdw4gTA&feature=user I think you'll select some other songs played by him after you've listened to this one. *wild guess*

P/s: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBohWU-DTH0&feature=user (STAN LEE must check this out)

Don't hesitate to check it out. I've checked out a young kid too ! Same age as Connie Talbot this girl, Emily Bear has some amazing talent in playing the piano. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vUx4t4W4eVY&feature=related
She can play Mozart's pieces in a-so-easy- manner. To be frank, how many pianist in this whole world can do that? *chuckleS* She composes songs too. May God bless this wonderful little kid.=)

So about me today, nothing much though. I thought I'm going to have a bad day since my friend was pissed off because of my fault ! During the class almost ends, she seems to be alright. *phew* Thank God because I'll feel extremely bad if she gets angry. I'm thinking A LITTE hard on what should I say when my mom calls. Don't be surprised why I got to think hard because we or maybe, I don't have much thing to talk about. Nowadays, I think I don't talk unless it is necessary. Well is it a good thing or bad? Am I changing to become some cool idiots ? *wondering* I think I should finish up my conclusion and have my shower. Good day everyone.

Confession

Cold night- Mom just called as a sign of she safely arrived. She went for vacation these two weeks made me have sufficient time to think what's really going on with me. Unfortunately, all the dilemmas I have couldn't come to a solution. I've tried talking to friends but the feedback I got was all the same thing that I've heard over and over again. As for now, besides answering questions they asked I don't think I have any topic to share with them. I'm not having hard feeling on them is just that I don't feel comfortable sharing my private stuffs with them anymore. Before this I'm so proud to tell everyone that I can share ALL my stuffs with my family but it turned out to be different now. I guess I'm so sick of getting analyzed and judged after I share what I thought is a happy thing to share.

I wish to tell them face to face that what happens nowadays are no longer the same as 20 years ago. The world is changing !! Or perhaps I AM changing! Seriously as I grow up, I felt that there are more and more doubts and dilemmas throwing towards me. Are all that challenges wish to test how flexible or patient am I? By the way I somehow feels bad when I have to answer NO if my mom is going to ask 'so did you miss me while I'm away ?'.. *ouch* I think it will hurts pretty much. Each week is killing me when I got to go back home and facing someone that I cared for but no longer can talk with...!

The other day A was asking did you feel lonely sometimes? I said OBVIOUSLY I do. My routine in hostel and home are just the same..In front of the monitor, attending classes, meals, and sleep. I wonder how much time I need so that I can be happy again. People usually will say 'YOU DECIDE YOUR OWN HAPPINESS' but am I capable of that? Everyday I wakes up and talk to the mirror saying 'BE HAPPY'. I think it helps somehow. I bet some of you may think only a fool do that ! Try it out when you're seriously unhappy and depressed. Who knows it will help a little?

P/s: I'm alright is just that I need a little more time to clear up my thoughts and be truly happy again. Sorry for acting like a 9 years old kid getting emotional at certain time. I don't meant to be in this way but something is just inevitable ! Have a good day everyone !

No motivation

Raining evening- As usual woke up for class today. But was a little different since I slept late last night. Went to Sanctuary for some chilling session since all of us are quite moody. C having cold war with his gf while me is a little lost here and there. Then after talking most of the things we eventually felt better ! I'm still stuck in my assignment as I don't have proper idea to do it. Ended up being moody and sleepy all the time. *sigh* Is still raining out there, which makes the weather so nice to have some nap !

Looking for answers

Cloudy evening- Yesterday we went to perform in Eastin Hotel for a birthday girl, Nisha who was celebrating her 20th birthday. I think this girl is pretty rich since it was just a 20th birthday but her parents can throw a birthday party in a hotel ballroom. And not to forget there were 20 cakes with different sizes. Too bad there's no picture for this event since my camera is not with me. I've been there before this but it was years ago when sister became her friend's model for a make up competition where they got 2nd place. *giggles*

I still can remember what I wore back then! A khakis, a lousy blouse and a SLIPPER！ＬＭＡＯ! Yesterday performance was a little rush since we only informed by Rachael on Monday. Rehearsal was on Wednesday then Friday we're ON ! I got so annoyed yesterday since we were scheduled near to the last part of the event and we haven't had our dinner ! Ended up Carin was asking some chefs behind the dressing rooms for some dessert and prawns ! That was nice and tasty except for the dessert since it was a little sweet for me.. Overall the dance was easy but when it's easy it'll prone to have more mistakes.And as usual Rachael was the one who we think was the best.

Today I had an unexpected call from P. I guessed it was just because she's looking for someone to have lunch with.. I'm so doubt what kind of person she is but still I'll treat everything/everyone with 'neutral' treatment. Sometimes we seems to have conflict sometimes we are alright and again sometimes I am 'isolated'. All these situations that I've been through thought me something, 'Just let it be'

I'm supposed to go out for a movie but ended up plan changed ! Well can't do anything and I should continue sitting in front of my PC and 'hang out'. Thinking hard what to have for dinner !!!

YOU made me disappointed

Fine night- Today was a tiring day for me as I woke up early but slept pretty late. After award presentation I drove all the way back to Kajang for rehearsal with others. After the rehearsal again I drove all the way back to campus. Just got so moody starting from the award presentation since I'm having headache. Today when we chit chatted on random things I just got the idea what kind of person are you. It might be wrong but most of it should be the correct one. Anyway, if what we said really occurs and you will react as what you said then I think I've made the wrong decision again. Started from last year's incident I think I don't really believe in what people said though even some of it may be true. I got no idea why that's happening is just that I don't feel comfortable to believe in people. People I refer here could be random but first instinct usually will be my guideline. But 'they' still thought I'm a naive kid who is unable to use my brain to analyse.
The other day my brother said to me , You're always like that, don't have own principles to follow and adhere to. I was stunned there thinking whether what he said was the right one? Or I'm just being too nice to everyone? And what's wrong of being nice to my friendS? I'm alright with everything as long as you don't cross over my limit. The definition of 'limit' can be varied among people. But I believe that my limit is flexible enough.

P/s: Hey YOU (a person who don't know the existence of my blog) no longer can distract my emotion ! I'm able to think a little different after the emo period last few weeks ! Is really not a big deal..From the first day I know you I've already got an idea how it will goes like. Stay tuned and see how Soo Jin roars... !

A good news or a bad one?

Cold night- I was previously writing and wanted to post up what had happened. But in the end, I posted up in my private blog. *chuckles* Out of sudden I just felt that way. But the title was the same one. In conclusion, Soo Jin has to make a bad decision again...! Which make me have mixed feelings about all the thing that's going on.I need to study for this Fri test but there's minimum time left for me to do that. Oh Gosh! I just got to work a little hard !

No Motivation

Fine night- Well I've been busy on facebook and MSN but I still haven't started to look for my research paper's sources yet ! *sigh* I'm just too lazy I guess ! But to be frank this is the most troublesome project I got to do so far. First of all, there's no specific PRINTED guidelines. Secondly, she just change her mind out of sudden and thirdly, she can't really remember what she said previously. But overall she's still good and fit to be a lecturer is just that the 'old type'. Final is just three weeks away ! Test on this Fri I haven't prepare a single thing yet ! Owh I just realized I'm actually so busy !! *chuckles*

Mom is in my aunt's house already. She's been busy shopping and chilling out there. But I think she should have all this kind of fun since she's been working so hard for all this year. If I got extra cash in the future I'll definitely sponsor her for a trip.
But who knows what will happen huh? I just hope I manage to get a job for nov and dec otherwise I can't buy the things I need. God bless me ~~~ Should start my work SOON...

刀郎 concert

Rainy evening- Yesterday went all the way to the Arena of Stars to watch Dao Lang's concert. Perhaps many of you got no idea who's this fellow but he really got a great voice when he sings. The concert was not as lively as Jay's concert but somehow it is acceptable though. Some of his songs' lyrics are meaningful even though when he sang it contain a little accent of those China people. Besides that, he expressed his gratitude on stage to all the Malaysians for helping the people in SiChuan earthquake. This dude seems to be a humble person. *giggles* I judged him through the actions on the stage where he performed. Got to go back to College now so can't write much. Stay tuned for the latest update of me in the coming post. Anyway who will bother about the latest update of me though? *chuckles* Have a good day everyone...=)

Reminiscing

Sunny morning- Before I fell asleep yesterday, I somehow looked out the window in my mom's room. Thinking back all those days where dad used to give me a peck on my cheek before he goes to work. I think that was a decade back. Or maybe more than that. To be frank, for a child who is missing his/her father during their growing up moment is really a loss for the kid and the father itself. Anyway this is somehow my own opinion only.

Yesterday sister,bro and I went out for dinner after that straight to Metro Point and met up sister's friends. We were eating a lot yesterday ! *scary*
Mom will reach Aunty Jessica's house tomorrow but not sure what's the time yet. I think today my agenda will be the same again- watching Ugly Betty. =)

The same story again.

Raining evening- Today I thought we can talked just like last time but it happened just the opposite. What you said in a joking manner somehow turned out to be a little mean to me though. My interpretation of what you said, 'No I'll have hesitant to bring you out, worry you'll get crazy again'...Thank God that I know what you all are thinking. That incident really takes a lot of time to let everyone get back into the same 'channel'. But I think even we're going back to the same 'channel' it will be so different. I declined a few times when friends asked to go clubs since I somehow sensed something awkward. So ended up the whole week I was staying at home doing nothing. My assignments made me headache. The weather has been so sucks ! Everything seems to be out of my control nowadays. So I don't bother much,just let it be. For someone who has no intention to be mean, is alright that you've said what you've said, I'll accept the fact that I might did something that you regard as unpleasant but it somehow making me to think differently...

All over again

Sunny morning- Just woke up about half an hour ago. I had funny dream again. It was really funny ! I forgot huge part of the dream when I woke up. But I just can sensed was a real funny one. These few days besides staying at home, I went to the airport, went to my aunt's house, and went to Connaught night market. SO embarrassing since I used the wrong highway ! *chuckles* I met my lecturer there when I was about to go back.

Is a great thing that my mom is enjoying at Sydney now. But poor thing is I got no good food to eat. *sad* Actually I do have alternatives but I just don't feel like doing that. It somehow already different when we met each other. Seriously not the same anymore. Maybe time can heal most of the thing. I still haven't touch anything yet since this week is my study week. Sad huh? Should start soon !!!

Stuck !

Fine night- I;m currently chit chatting with my friends instead of doing what I'm supposed to. *sigh* I seriously not sure what is the right idea to write as she's A LITTLE troublesome. She can changed her mind out of sudden and what you spent time wrote on probably is the wrong one ! Sad huh? I'm currently addicted to one of the old Peterpan's song. Check it out if you like Malay songs too. =) I think I need to set my butt to finish up a little of my essay at least instead of wasting time EVERYWHERE !

Tak Bisakah
Artist: Peter Pan
Hatiku bimbang dengan tetap pikirkanmu
Selalu-s'lalu dalam hatiku
Kumelangkah sejauh apapun itu
Selalu kau didalam hatiku

Ku berjalan-berjalan memutar waktu
Berharap temukan sisa hatimu
Mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
Mengerti kau didalam hatiku

Tak Bisakah kau menungguku
Hingga nanti tetap menunggu
Tak Bisakah kau menuntunku
Menemani dalam hidupku

Ku berjalan-berjalan memutar waktu
Berharap temukan sisa hatimu
Mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
Mengerti kau didalam hatiku

Jangan Kau mencari hidupku
Kemana Kau tau isi hatiku
Tunggu sejenak aku disitu
Jalanku jalan menemukanmu

Tak Bisakah kau menungguku
Hingga nanti tetap menunggu
Tak Bisakah kau menuntunku
Menemani dalam hidupku

Hectic But Enjoyable

Fine evening- Yesterday seriously was a hectic one for me though. I woke up and went to class. About 1pm, I went to Batu 11 to have a superb expensive lunch !!! We ate at those normal chicken rice shop and it costs around 32 bucks. The chicken rice over there is a little famous but I didn't expect it to be so expensive ! After our lunch, we went to Low Yat to buy a laptop for her cousin since I also need to buy a new earphone for my mp3. After we've settled everything we headed to Kepong as his cousin's cafe is there. Unfortunately, she's not there. *sigh* We went to Bukit Jalil for a little swimming session since both of us gained weight like no body's business. *chuckles*

We met some insane fellow at the pool. He kept talking to himself and disturbing other people as if he's mad or something. But I think he's quite well educated as he spoke in English. We went to Mid Valley for movie and dinner after that. Basically that was the first Saturday where I can did so many things. *grins* When I came home I'm still fresh. *surprisingly* Today as usual went to jazz class and I got pissed off early in the morning. Ended up taking cab to town. *toot* But I was lucky enough to get a cab in just 5 minutes time.

I'm really not in the mood to talk but someone kept asking me what happen which made me irritated and I just yell. *whoopppss* I knew that was so rude. I need to finish up the draft for my research paper and my Finance's assignment. But so far I did none of them. I'm looking through books just to find something suitable to write on. I hope I can finish it up on time though.

After a long week

Fine evening- Well I'll be having one week holiday as Hari Raya is just around the corner. But this one week is not a holiday to be exact, is a study week instead. Sad huh? Yesterday I'm on my bed lying for 1 hour plus before I really can fall asleep. I'm so tired actually but mentally I'm waiting for someone to call. I told myself what for waiting as my friend forget to call me? Finally I manage to put everything aside and get some sleep Sometimes friends can also be hopeless. *giggles* Or maybe I'm a person who treasure friends more than anything else. I believe that time can proof everything no matter how good you're. I got some reflections of myself when I'm talking with G just now. It got me a little offended since the topic is just a little too sensitive to be talked out just like that. This made me a little pissed off to join them tonight. That's why I asked C is it alright if I join in. I just don't want to be too awkward out of no where. It hurts when you're sending out some wrong idea to the wrong people. We'll see how.

Weird day

Fine evening- Yesterday I fell asleep around 10.15pm. Out of sudden my eyes just wide open at 10.36pm. *sigh* I got no idea why was that happening. My heart beats so fast! A few seconds after that my phone ring. I think I can ‘feel’ that my phone is going to ring that’s why I just woke up out of sudden. I set my phone in silent mode without vibration when I want to sleep that’s why I’m so curious about this and made me posted up in my blog. This was not the first time happening. But it only reminds me of all those past memories when you’re waiting for someone to call you. That’s why it somehow made me feel uneasy for the whole day. No big deal anyway.

Today there’s some fire drill practice going on at 8.30pm. Me and my roommate plan to go out for dinner at 8pm. Well if not because of having such practice I think me and my roommate got no chance to go out and eat though. *chuckles* I haven’t start my revision for tomorrow’s test. *congratulations* I just don’t know where to start though. Should I label it as too much to study? Or I’m just too lazy? God knows.

Can’t wait to go to TGI with C and G. Is been a while since the last time we spend time chilling out together. I think both of them are good friends to have. If M and S are reading my blog they should be laughing since the definition of friend is varied among us. I told myself the other day; I won’t talk much or argue with them. When they said that’s the right thing I’ll just follow it. I’m not childish or try to be one in saying all this as I just want to see to what extent I can follow their way of thinking. Instead of being a rebellious person why not trying to be a good and nice one? Anyway, when I’m not at that stage to accept what you said and you’re trying to pulling me into it, it will only do more harm between us. You’ll never know how much I love you all, the sacrifices you made I know I won’t get from anyone for the rest of my life. Respect and obey are two different things... Good luck.

Lazy again

Stuffy night- Well today I have a pretty long time outside my room. Around 8 hours I think. 6 hours of classes and another two hours doing nothing besides accompanying friends for lunch and we chit chatted. I got an English test today which took me exactly the time given to sit for test. I used it till the very last minute since I got no idea what to write and how to start. *chuckles* I think I can get a pass for this test. I still got weird feeling all over me after what had happened. Even though it was not a big thing but somehow there's something still 'in' me. Oh yea I forgot to post my practical result in the previous post. Well, I just got higher pass for it. I'm 6 marks away to get merit. Anyway I'm glad that I can passed it. Still got a lot more sections to brush up in order I can do better next year.

This coming long holiday I need to get a part time job !!! Whoever have some recommendations please do let me know. I need CASH !!!! There's a lot of important thing I need to buy but currently I got zero cents in my bank account. Sad thing right. This coming Thursday I'm having another test. Well I still haven't touch anything yet. I just got a feeling that this semester I'm just so RELAX..Is already the third week but I'm still doing nothing ! I think I'll be having a hard time after the coming one week holiday. Have a nice day everyone..=)

Summary of my weekend

Cloudy afternoon- Well I got a pretty good weekend though. On Friday I went to Jogoya, Starhill for dinner buffet. There's a lot of great food over there especially sashimi and salmon !!! *yummy* After the buffet ended around 10 we went for second round. I got an embarrassing moment happened right at the entrance of the club. *chuckles* Can't share it here since it was not really a big issue to tell everybody. Reached home pretty early since Saturday I still got class to go to. And that’s my Friday night about. Yesterday I went to Joanne’s house for her son birthday party. Went home early too since everyone’s tired. I want to say THANK YOU to Mimi since she is so nice to pick me up for the gathering and the birthday party. I really do appreciate it. And I’m also glad that my sister has such a good friend. After that day, I can sense that we’re not that close anymore. I think it will just happen for temporary though...I THINK! Oh, I was so happy when I got wedding invitation from Jessie. Is really so nice of her to count me in as well. I hope I manage to do some arrangement to attend her wedding since it is on Sunday.


As for today, as usual woke up and go for jazz class. I bet I’ll suffer from muscle pain tomorrow since I didn’t warm up before I start to dance! *ouch* I hope it won’t be that bad. I went to some food court in town area to had lunch with Nicole after class. I miss the noodle in that food court so much! As Hari Raya is getting closer, the people are busy shopping around which makes me stranded in the shopping complex for hours before I can go home since the town was like so jam. Today I heard something which I don’t expect to know. One of my friends is taking advantage on someone that I know. Is a little pathetic when I can’t confront my friend yet I don’t want him/her to continue doing that. He/she is sending the wrong signal to the wrong person I think. I even told N maybe is just a coincidence but she assured me that’s the truth. *clueless*

different

Well I just got back and had my shower about an hour ago. After what had happened yesterday, I think I’m a little clear now to talk about it again. Sometimes having good intention is important but I’m still standing firm on my own principles. But I’ll always remember what the Chinese folks used to say, ‘you’ll get regret one day if you don’t listen’. I’m 100% believe that this is so true! But sometimes teenagers will just be a little rebellious at certain things… as for me I’ll rebel if the plans doesn’t go my way… you all may think I’m an idiot childish chic who don’t use brain to think but sometimes I think all this is just ‘in’ me. I accept the fact that you’re concern about me but sometimes please just give me a little trust based on action instead of just saying ‘I have 100% confidence on you’. Actions do speak louder than words!

At first, I am suppose to feel happy since I got a gathering today and I got a merit award for my past semester’s result. But all stuffs that are going on right now make me not in the mood anymore. I felt so embarrassing when I’m troubling someone… If I were to confront her she will only say ‘is for your own good’. I think she forgot that once when she’s a teen she loves to be accepted too. If I were to follow your footsteps, I’ve already rebel long time ago and of course not now only I voiced out my dissatisfaction. No matter how unsatisfied I am I’m still looking forward to be a good person. Need to have some nap before I get moody.

P/s; thanks for your concern/opinion/advice..let me sort it out myself..=)

Privacy

Moody evening-I do think that the definition of privacy could be varied if I were to ask everyone. As for my case, what I require is just respect the time I spent with you and the details of it. You don’t need to do a report for M. I’m really so disappointed that no one bother on how I felt. They will just say so and I got to follow. For instance, “I don’t want you to stay up so late with THEM”. Other examples are, ‘it is different because you’re there with me not THEM’. I think is different because you can LOOK AFTER me including what I did, who I talk to, who I dance with, and etc. That’s the difference you meant? Or providing M a full report on what I did?

You told me before not to talk about your past to someone close enough to you but how come you’re telling every single thing about me to M? Is it just because 3 of us are family? Seriously, is a big no-no that you’re thinking like this. I’m able to tell to someone close enough to you about every single thing about you but the main point is, did I done that? I respect you as I believe that every human being have things that they wouldn’t like others to know. So why not you think on my side too? The way you’re showing concern is KIND OF wrong somehow. Wrong in terms of you didn’t ask me whether I like the way you’re arranging things. You just MAKE the decision and telling me that is LIKE THAT.

We’re creatures who got our own unique thinking and emotions. Just don’t be so selfish. You don’t like others know that you smoke, so as a sign of respect I didn’t tell it out. You don’t like your closed one to know that you’re once so rebellious so as a sign of respect I didn’t share that with anyone. I’m just a teen who often in the state of confusion so why don’t YOU all these adults do something as in change the way you approaching the teen. YOU expect me to think as I’ve already reaches 30 years old? They’re 1001 ways to show your concern. The way you’re using right now is hurting me instead of making me to have warm feeling. I got no idea why it is hurting because it just comes out from the bottom of my heart. May god bless everyone !

Back on track

Fine evening- I'm so addicted to HK drama recently. *giggles* My life currently back to normal. So glad that I made it through. =) Today afternoon I did something pretty stupid. I'm so spirited to practice piano. So I went to book music room for tomorrow BUT at the wrong timing ! I forgot about the class postponement. My 2 bucks just flied away ! *chuckles* Well this is life huh?

I'm A LITTLE sleepy now. And I'm stucked in my finance tutorials. My timetable had changed for thrice. So sick of the new one.. 'Your upcoming travel plans will amuse you, shock you, and, best of all: Educate you!'- my horoscope for today ! I think got some implicit meaning though. We'll see.

Gastric

Fine night- I'm having gastric while I'm sleeping early this morning. The pain woke me up. It was really unbearable but thank god I'm alright to go for classes. Today was my first week to have mon classes since last week I'm not back yet. I kind of like 6 hours class but it is really tiring and even worst if didn't get a good sleep the previous night.

Now I'm having stomach upset. Frequent visit to the loo. So bad all these bad things happened out of sudden. Ouch ! Yesterday I was talking about bond in my private blog then today what a coincidence that I got to studies on bond in finance class. The finance class is getting tougher though. Having a hard time to cope up. And I'm still worry for accounting. Worry she can't finish the syllabus. This semester is superb hectic and tiring.

I'm a little pissed off when someone close enough to me had intruded my privacy. She told someone about something she shoudn't. But physically she got the authority. But I thought living on this globe we need to respect each other? Why not just keep to yourself instead of telling someone and she will nag me on that? Anyway, I didn't tell out anything to anyone even though you already did since I still respect you as my close one.

This friday got a gathering session with sister's friends. *hooray* Finally I got something to do on weekends instead of sitting at home and hiding in the room.

Noisy Day

Fine afternoon- I barely can have a good sleep since early in the morning has already started to be so noisy due to there's some construction going on near my apartment. This let me recalled back those days where E block ( opposite my hostel) was having renovation.

My desktop created some problem again. And I'm going to fork out money to repair it. I got my desktop for formatting this year way TOO MUCH. Old PC what to do....*sigh* Oh my god ! Second week of my new semester has ended. And so far I don't have any notes for finance yet and accounting lecturer seems to be taking her own sweet time to teach us. I'm a little worry though. As for my English, I got a word to describe ! *speechless* My dear MISS will be 'jumping' here and there during lectures and I think is due to we're having generation gap since I barely could fully understand what's she's talking about. I can gradually adapt back to my life again. The matters that are bothering me slowly been solved out. I just want to have some peace afterall.

For someone close enough to me: Please be frank and talk to me not on m back. Seriously I don't appreciate it ! Please change your way in talking to me otherwise we got nothing to talk on . No offend though. I just want to burst out here since there's no way for me to tell it out.

I felt a little guilty lying on something small. Well of course is for good sake. I don't want get to much attention at the moment. I'm miserable enough and don't wish to add more on my current burden or I shall call it thoughts. =)

Old memories

Fine afternoon- Today I passed by my secondary school while I'm on my way home. Watching all the students happily walking towards town just reminds me when I'm also once like them walking to town with one big gang. Seriously if ask me to walk under the hot sun now I don't think I can. *giggles* Yesterday I was lying on my bed for hours before I can fell asleep. Finally I finished reading Tuesdays with Morrie, one of the book suggested by Joann. It was really a touching real-life story though. Need to thanks Joann for recommending this book in her blog www.joann15.blogspot.com

Yesterday I was lying on my bed reflecting what I've been thinking all this while. Me and Katrina chit chatted until one plus in the morning. I finally fall asleep at 3. Raining so heavily yesterday midnight. Today morning was a little hard for me to wake up and I really SUFFER during English class. Luckily can go back way earlier for Finance class. Finally I've watched the 1st episode of Prison Break Season 4. Another episode save for next week. *chuckles* Wentworth Miller still looks so ~WOAH~!! I bet you know what I meant. *grins*

Departure

Fine evening- Today class finished pretty early though since we're just doing tutorial questions in the class. Going back home tomorrow. I haven't practice my piano yet so I got a little worry I will get screw this saturday. *giggles* I got a bad feeling that I'm going to flop my practical exam. Even if I got a pass it will just be a 'lucky pass'.

This saturday I'm suppose to have a performance but no one inform me anything yet so I think they just counted me out since I was absent for the last class. Well my friends are going back to their country. They will board the plane pretty soon. Is really nice bunch of friends to have, will be missing them a lot since we might have no chance to meet again. =)

Well I got new 'kisses' from ants and mosquitoes. Still hate insect pretty much though. I have to hand up my project's mind mapping tomorrow but seriously I got no idea what to write yet. *sigh*

Normal day

Fine night- Just as usual today. Except I got 8am class. My lecturer said 'we only will start class at 8.15am if we got 8am class'. No explanation given. *speechless* Previously I was having some confusion on who I am and what should I do then it made me become so emotional. As for now, I'm whole lot better in handling my emotion. Thanks to Joann. Eventhough she doesn't really 'support' my back, but all that she said made me think it another way round. I guess girl and girl can talk easily. =) We just got the 'click' among both of us.

As for now, all I got to do is to concentrate on my studies instead thinking all those nonsense and make me feel unhappy. This semester is killing me though since is a short semester but I'm taking 3 subjects. Which means i got 24 hours per week to be in class. Is so tiring ! Well I'm thinking whether the long semester break shall I work or just stay home and chill out. Staying at home will just wasting my time on unnecesssary things. *sigh*

Is only 8.31pm I already feel like sleeping !

First time to be so happy

Pictures as the starter: The Important people

Fine evening- Well I just reached INTI about 2 hours ago. I sat in the train almost for 2 hours. Today's blog will be a little long since I've sum up everything together. The train journey becomes so bad when there was one bunch of aunties and uncles boarded the train at Kepong Central and they started to make noises which was so annoying. I don't think they realise they are talking so loud until people who were half asleep also woke up due to their conversation.

These few days I was so busy helping out in my sister's wedding. The wedding dinner held at Noble Banquet went on pretty smoothly except for registration time where I got a little messed up with the guest's name. After the dinner ended we headed to De-Lux for 2nd round. I was dead bored in there since everyone got so 'high' but not me. I just mingle around, dance and drink. My bro-in-law's friends who flew over to Malaysia were also there but at that time I don't know them yet. So that's why didn't really mix up with them.

So went back around 4am then we went to Kepong for supper. We didn't eat much on that night that's why. When I reached home was already 5 so I went to remove my make up and bathe. Ended up sleeping so late. The next day I manage to sleep till 1 plus only woke up and I was in a hurry to help sister pack all the things she needs to bring back to Kajang. On that Saturday night few of sister's friends came to my house since it is a practice where one day before wedding bride's friends will come to her house to chill out. I slept around 1 that night but sister was talking to her best friend till pretty late. The next morning I woke up around 8 plus to get ready for the big day !

As usual when I woke up I went to on my desktop and facebook for a while. Then sister asked me to buy her some disposable panties for the game later. I ended up searching all over the groceries shop around my area unfortunately I can't find it. So my last option was going to supermarket. I got it anyway.

The bridegroom reached my house a little earlier than expected. Then due to that the bridemaids were so rush in preparing the 'game'. Bla bla bla.... We went back to Rawang from my house around 1pm. That was the first time sitting in the car passing tol WITHOUT paying. After everything had settled (praying and tea session) I was busy serving the 'brothers' and guests. That was only afternoon I already started to drink but not that much. Around 6 plus the buffet started bla bla bla, after all the cleaning we went to De-Lux again. But this time it was totally DIFFERENT !

Earlier, I got teased from sister's friend saying someone (bro-in-law's friend, F) will marry me in another 2 years time. As usual this was because they got so 'high' and excited though. I didn't bother much so I continue talking to one of the Vietnam dude. Haha I was learning their language. Seriously it was difficult. Yesterday was the first time I didn't feel bored in night club. The environment still the same, girls, waiters, drugs and so forth. I went to dance with Apple and Audrey until I got tired. Both of them got so 'high' before we reached De-Lux so once we were there they became more excited and keep drinking.

Previously, Natalie's husband got excited and gave me a peck on my cheek. Luckily at that time Natalie was there otherwise I'll be having a hard time explaining. Then I saw A crying since she quarrel with her boyfriend. She kept it to herself for days then when she's in the club she talked everything out and dance with everybody. So to be with her, me and F dance too. I think for those who already get bored reading you may click to other stuff since the coming things that I'm going to write will become more bored.

Again, I got a crush on someone. I'm so sick of myself for being like this. Each time I got a crush I will become so *toot*. Wondering how come I cannot be more steady in this kind of thing ! I really hoped that the fellow got too 'high' that's why he said the wrong things. I was praying hard that he don't give me a call on the next day or in the future but my heart got so 'sour' when I think this way. Then I become more and more 'shitty'. My mind becomes uncertain weighing the pros and cons. If can I wish this kind of thing got some formulas for calculation. I kept thinking what for I need to crack my head with all these stuffs. I don't think that fellow can 'go through ' my sis and bro in law. Seriously, this type of guy for entertainment purpose will be good enough. Further down might or might not be a disaster. But the chances to be a disaster will be higher. The things I've been thinking is going to happen again.

Basically, I'm happy but mentally I'm struggling. Time can proof things ! I just hope I have family members who will put up things in a better and effective way.

P/s : Everyone, sorry for posting up some long winded thingy that I'm also having problem to understand it..

Less than 24 hours

Fine night- Actually I wanted to post this up earlier but I was busy doing something. Well just now got a big new but unfortunately was not a good one. I'm relieved everything managed to settle down. I'm attending my sister's wedding dinner tomorrow !! *wow* It was like so fast !!! Still remember those days where we quarrel and I ended become so rebellious.. But all these had changed after I grow up and my sister got fed up. =p She changed her 'strategy' towards me. She become caring instead of restricting me from my activities. She bring me out to places that I would not have chance to go if she does not bring me to. I'm wondering right now what will happen during the dinner tomorrow. Is been a while since I'm sitting down with my dad to have dinner. a decade? *calculating* To me my dad seriously is such a *toot* man. Just imagine you got to have dinner with this kind of man and you have to pretend you're happy. It doesn't matter whether I'm happy or not I just want my mom and sister to be happy. After all is my sis's big day ! All this while I do blame my dad for being so irresponsible. Actually if he loves us he should at least visit us more often and not just complaining to us that we're using a lot of his money ! I really feel so bad when I see friends who have great dad around them to support them in any sense. I think my life is pretty complete except for I'm missing my daddy's love and care for such a long time.

Well starting on from tomorrow my sister is going to lead a different stage of life where she will become someone's wife and got whole lot more of commitment that she needs to give in. That day I was really so relieved that sister still got her own best friend to talk to her even though she missed quite a numbers of their reunion. My life is going to be more interesting as I'm taking subjects that are going to be tougher and tougher.

I think I will be having problem to sleep tonight since I'm just too excited for tomorrow. =)

Pain

Yesterday I can't sleep even it was already so late which made me have difficulty to wake up this morning. I went to MPH hall for enrollment but before that I went to exam center to take my result slip. After that went to hall and looked for Mr. Mani. Around 10.30am everything had settled. Me and Karin went to cafeteria for uncle's curry noodle. We miss it SOOOO much... *giggles*

After that I'm waiting for my 12pm class while catching up with my friends. The first lecturer I met today was my ENL3 lecturer, Ms Kavita. She's quite good in her FACIAL EXPRESSION. The second class was my ACC2 which is a Malay lady and my financial management lecturer is a Chinese man. This semester seems to be a little weird though.

As I'm sitting in the class, I was shivering since it was really cold in there plus my stomach is been so pain for the whole day. Talking about pain, that's another thing that I been so cruel on but I got no other choice besides to tell the truth. Well I guess tonight I will sleep slightly earlier since I'm not feeling well.

Busy

Fine afternoon- These few days been so busy since on my birthday I got a hectic day as well as on yesterday. My birthday this year is just a normal day though.. Woke up about 9 plus then got wishes from some of my friends then went to shower and had my breakfast. Around 2pm went for facial session which caused my face looks so ugly after that since got too much pimples and blackhead ! The petite girl used GREAT amount of energy to make sure all the pimples and blackhead to come out. After that my sweet mum sent me to KTM so that I can take train to Rawang. I got there about 7pm and just nice to reach at dinner time. Actually on that day I was so tired but at night still have to go out to De-Lux. And we finally reached home around 4.40am ! *yawn* Some pictures in the night club since I'm so bored !





Yesterday nigth went to BBQ at natalie's house which is located at Putra Heights to celebrate few girls birthday... Well well is like entering a maze when we're trying to go to her house ! But her house is really nice and warm though. And I got to play with Harven boy for the first time ! so CUTE ! Yesterday I don't need to spend hours to BBQ-ing but still got to eat nice food ! Thanks to Apple. *sweet* After makan makan as usual everyone were like chit chatting here and there. Unfortunately, most of them need to go back early. But there still have enough people to make the house LIVELY ! After a while, they started to gamble until 4 plus in the morning ! Pity sis and Randy need to send me back to Kajang some more before they're going back to Rawang. Again I slept only around 5 plus. These two days really make me grow FAT ! Eat, drink, sleep late, everything bad I did it for 2 days ! Nevertheless, I was having a blast !

Rainy Day

Raining afternoon- Today as usual I went to class in the morning. Got a new girl joining us and she's good though. Struggling to catch up but at the end of the class when teacher asked whether she can cope she nodded and said yeah it was fun! Exactly the things that all the girls in the class said before. Actually plan to do go for my facial tomorrow since I've already did the appointment and to my surprise my sister said going back to Rawang tonight and the GREAT thing was I NEED TO GO WITH HER ! Then I complaint to my mom hope she can help me out. *giggles*

Is still raining out there though. When the wind blows towards me is really REFRESHING ! and making me to feel sleepy. I shall get some nap before I get more pissed off with my upside down plan.

First experience

Fine afternoon-Today I woke up pretty late though. Since yesterday I slept late. *chuckles* Yesterday really got a blast. First,we went to Kelly's house to celebrate her daughter's birthday. Then after that, we went to Sunshine.But sad thing was when we left there're still 7 buckets of beer ! I'm lucky enough to get 2 rave party(summer sensation) tickets. After hanging out in sunshine for an hour plus we changed venue again to one night club. *sigh* All i can said it was really so darn bored in the night club !!! Changing room for three time i think....My job in that room was like eatng fruits only....duh so you can imagine how bored was that if in the room you don't have any of your friends...

Hot

Fine afternoon-Just got back from KL. The weather is like so hot ! I thought now should be raining season. *sigh* Went to Ivory Romance to accompany sister to finalize everything. Both of them ended up arguing in the car once got out from the bridal shop. Feel so bad because I can't do anything also. All the way back to Rawang both of them didn't talk until now. Bro in law is preparing the dinner while sister was sitting outside. This reminds me of that time where they quarrel until sooooooo BAD !

Yesterday went down to Cheras to take a box of Martell VSOP but ended up the fellow gave wrongly and we took Chivas instead. That's why today we got to go all the way to Mandarin Oriental to exchange. And this is another reason both of them argue. All these wedding stuffs really make people go crazy ! My so called relatives some more want to create problem ! I seriously can't imagine what will happen on that day ! I went to Aloha yesterday night too but this was the first time where I'm not enjoying in the club. Maybe is Monday night that's why. There are a lot of navies loitering at the street. I heard Daniel said they came out starting from 3 in the afternoon. And I heard there was a rave party at Sunway Surf Beach on next Saturday. The ticket during pre sales also expensive already. RM 78 plus one free drink. I think if buying on that actual day going to be RM 108 plus one free drink.

Daniel actually suggested me to go but he said there might be a lot of people. My friends feel like putting up the gathering on next Saturday. And I got no idea where I'm going to be since my mom is coming to Rawang on next Thursday. My plans gone upside down at the moment ! *sigh*

WE are proud of YOU !

Fine night- The match that the whole Malaysians are waiting for just ended. Although Chong Wei can't obtain a gold for Malaysia but I bet all the MALAYSIANS still love him ! He made us really really proud ! Today I went to jazz class since I worried can't follow up if I'm joining back next month. The 'situation' in there is still the same. Nothing much to say and we got show coming up next month and school concert on November. Hopefully the concert is around the end of the month. Today I'm sitting for hours just to get something done. So darn bored even Allison was there with me. The dog is so ADORABLE ! Tomorrow got to wake up early. What a sad thing since Ive been waking up early for the past few days ! So I guess tonight got to sleep a little early.

Hooray ! over !

Fine evening- I went to sit for my last paper already. I thought I'll be really happy after my examinations were over. But to be frank I don't have any feeling though. *sigh* I checked out from hostel as well. I was already so sleepy when I'm in house before even go to INTI. After spending about an hour packing up my stuff is time for me to sit for the examination. I'm still sleepy at that time. I'm just glad that during the exam I didn't doze off. After the exam I went home and continue watching my drama as usual. I'm just wondering whether my friend is free tonight. Bored bored.

No mood day

Fine night- Today I went to trim my hair in some salon in town. Not much difference though.. cut+was+blow=36 bucks gone. Then went for lunch at Old Town. After that went to buy something which ended up none of it I can used properly when i try it. Sad right? Been so moody nowadays and I don't have a single clue why I'm having this kind of feeling. This Saturday is my final paper for this semester. And after that I'll have 2 weeks holiday ! HOORAY ! I got so many things to do.

Today I sent Allison to one of my ex buddy's house. Funny huh I'm calling my buddy as 'ex buddy'. Yeah happened too long ago where me and her just not buddy anymore due to some reason where I won't get to know for the rest of my life I think. Nevertheless, I categorized this as one of my biggest disappointment in life. A disappointment where it is really cutting me deep inside.

Some other thing on my mind too but I just don't know what to say or HOW to think it. I'm going to be busy cleaning up house during holiday. *sigh* Moody moody !

Big Relieved.

Fine night- Finally I've settled two papers today. And I finally got my course work mark. So is just a big relieved for me. I'm currently watching Moonlight Resonance (HK Drama). It is about a family that has lots of conflicts whether is internally or externally. The parents got divorced then the children are equally divided to the parents. The complexity of the family makes me reflects so many things and reminds me of "don't judge the book by itself".

I feel like trimming my hair tomorrow. Tomorrow got replacement class and need to flip through all the letters,memos, e-mails amd faxes format before this saturday last paper. I'm so lazy to change my bedsheet. So lazy to EVEN MOVE ! *giggles* Enjoy watching drama...*chuckles*

2nd paper

Fine afternoon- Just came back from lunch. Today's paper I seriously thought I didn't prepare well though thank God I still can answer all questions required. Left three papers. I have a strong instinct that I might screw up for Saturday's paper. Just don't know why I got such feeling. She said she's going to post up our course work marks today but AS USUAL have to wait till Wednesday to get the full coursework marks.

Well just did averagely in the oral part. *chuckles* I'm wondering what someone is writing in the new post. I'm going to have a hard time this two days because I'm having two papers on the Wednesday. Lucky enough one is calculation and another one need to memorize. If two also need to memorize I'll be so DEAD due to I have limited brain cells to do that. *giggles*

Yesterday my mummy MSN me asking what I'm doing and she said she missed me so much. But after I did some calculation I've been away from home just for few days only though. And she joked and said 'you no need to come back for 2 weeks.then i'll die of depression'... *sigh* Is that a joke or some THREATENING phrase ? *grins* The weather is like so hot ! I'm sweating even though I'm just sitting in front of my laptop typing words. *stuffy*

WHATEVER

Fine afternoon- I'm currently watching 'you don't mess with the Zohan'. Well it a pretty silly movie though. I got nothing to comment about it. *chuckles* I'm dozing off pretty soon since I don't really have a good sleep last night. Oh yea I forgot to talk about my 'teacher' who made a lot of comments regarding my blog. Hey 'Lok teacher' I'm improving with my English and writing skills so be patient alright.

Thanks for Lok's supporter, Lok's mummy and Lok's daddy for ANALYZING the facts over my Cbox. Pretty understandable that 'Lok teacher' need some clarification on 'why Soo Jin's blog is so sucks YET still have people viewing it'.. FYI, I got no idea why people willing to spend some time on reading up my blog but I DO APPRECIATE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM. Now I finally understand that you don't need to do anything to trigger mad people, by doing NOTHING you can successfully triggered them.

Well napping time ...=)

Another 2 days

Fine afternoon- My first paper starts on this Saturday. But I haven't start preparing for that yet maybe after I have my shower and washing my clothes. Yesterday seriously can't sleep wel though. I was lying on the bed for 2 hours plus before I fell asleep. What a waste of time. The same thing happened on Sunday night. And I can't figured out why. I got a new 'kiss' from those BELOVED ants on my shoulder. Another thing I can't figure out why. Will be busy till next week.

By the way, I seriously got a bad feeling for my final paper on next Satuday since my lecturer didn't even give us back our test papers. So the problem is how the hell we going to know our performance? And which part to improve? *darn* Seriously doubt on her capacity to think and do her work as a lecturer.. Don't mean to offend anyone but just telling the facts in a pretty harsh way. *giggles*

GOOD LUCK for people who are sitting for examinations...=) Even though just a small wish over here but when a little plus a little it can be pretty HUGE ~~

The 'big day'

Fine evening- Finally I've completed one of my major examination. I'm not sure how I did in it so can't comment much on that. Perhaps is been a while since I last took an examination that's why I've really been a little nervous during I played the scale. I even misinterpret what the examiner asked me to play and ended up played the wrong key. *sigh* My teacher somehow said that the result doesn't matter as long as you've learnt something during the process.. But I'm thinking in another perspective where the outcome is the result of what you've put in. I think she just want to make me feel better by saying that. *wondering* I considered myself as really lucky to have this good examiner this year.

My teacher so fast said 'Well we should start prepare a little earlier for next year practical examination'. I was like ............WOW ! By the way, I'm so admired on that guy who's younger than me few years who was doing his Grade 8 exam. Oh gosh ! *speechless* He can really play so good. *applause* His whole family was there to support him.

Anyway all these were over so I shall start concentrate on my coming examinations.

Nervous+tired

Fine night- Yesterday I was lying on my bed for hours before I fell asleep. Same case happened to my roommate too.Maybe both of us spent too much days at hometown that's why got a little not used to it when sleeping in hostel last night. Today seriously pissed off when my lecturer forgot about the test until we're looking for her in her office and she stunned there for 10 seconds and said 'oh is it' (with her extreme facial expression). *sigh* How come she can be so forgetful? This is not the first time though sometimes in class also she keep talking until she forgot what she said previously. Oh gosh ! Another great thing is I met 2 idiots on the road while I'm driving back. One is a motorcyclist and another one is a woman. BOTH also PIG. So I don't think I need to do any further explanation on that since for those who drive they'll know what are the great things that they normally do!

My practical exam is reaching in less than 24 hours. Oh!!! As usual a little nervous. Anyway all I can do is trying my very best tomorrow. I'm having headache for the past 4 hours. *ouch* I got something stung me on my neck yesterday when I was sleeping. Now it ended up became swollen. I just don't understand why all these INSECTS must 'kiss' me? *sigh* No better prey?

A Sleepless Night

Fine midnight- I suppose to sleep now but I'm still awake. I've decided not to start my dance class this month since I'm quite busy with exams and helping out sister for her big day. Today I got a chance to see her wedding pictures. WOW ! Is really gorgeous. I had a nice time in Old Town chit chatting with sister's friends. Got some new knowledge somehow. Well mom made a compliment when saw someone's messenger picture. *giggles* As usual my mom got a pretty sharp eyes and good instinct. The little bag sis bought for me in China is really NICE ! The first thing I came to my mind on where to bring it is the same one as sister think ! What a coincidence. *chuckles* I still haven't do revision yet. Please CONGRATULATE me ! *thank you*

Pissed off day

Fine night- I've waited for 45 minutes before I got someone to pick me at Kajang KTM station. I'm just so GLAD that I didn't faint under the hot sun which is approximately around 32 Celsius. That's why when I reached home my face become a little reddish. *darn* Can't complain much since I got no other options.

Today i INPUT loads of DURIANS ! Oh gosh I just felt so guilty. *giggles* Now everyone will have an answer why Soo Jin will be getting fatter and fatter as days goes by.. I just wish the exam will finish up in a blink of eyes. I want to have holiday BADLY. Well is just another five days I'm going to sit for my practical exam. To my surprise I'm not really that nervous yet perhaps not near enough! *chuckles*

I'm getting a little excited due to my sister is going to marry soon! I am so eager to help her out ( if she needs me) once I'm on holiday. I can go to buy dress with her and I think I will request a facial session as well and obviously is on her.. *grins* SO I got really good reasons to be on holiday as soon as possible. Next week is going to be so hectic for me since I need to travel pretty much. I think my days will be staying in the room except go to classes. Not to forget that I still have test on coming Monday ! Well this shows that how inefficient my lecturer is. Having test in WEEK 14!

And I'm really not-that-satisfied with the decision yet still have to put my arse on the chair and sit for the test on Monday. *sigh* My test one mark also I haven't got it. I think the paper somehow got 'SWALLOWED' by her excuses since she said she has a very BUSY schedule. Yeah yeah as if that she's the only one got busy schedule and WE as students are 24/7 free ! Sometimes the society become so POLLUTED when there's the existence of this kind of people. No wonder nowadays people are doubt on our nation shout out 'MALAYSIA BOLEH'.

The Dark Knight

Fine night- I went to watch it today. It was really SUPERB. The way Heath Ledger (the joker) carries himself in that character was really impressing throughout the entire movie...What a coincidence today where I bumped into Gan,Joseph,Kenneth and Chee Seong. Is really been a long time the last time we sitting around and eat !

I want to meet you all( Lea, Asu, Gan,Mi Kee, Annie and Bee sern) badly...I'm waiting for my exam to be over then I can call you guys up for a meeting in the mamak stall. I miss those days where we can spent hours to talk on something UNIMPORTANT yet we still enjoying it. I miss those days where we went for duty together, area meeting, camping, and whole lot more. Even though I do felt a little unsatified with the organization system but nevertheless that was the main thing that let us to get along and know each other better. Hey actually I did a letter for each one of you and wish to pass to you all after our jobs are done but I didn't gave to anyone in the end. I just don't know why it happened so and I just felt like something will be the best by keeping it to myself.

A little tribute for all of you, I do feel proud by having you all to help me in most of the things in the organization. The way Azalea getting scold from me each time when the letters had been typed wrongly, the way Asu been the middle person of most of the bad situations, the hardwork Gan put in to manage the organization's store room, the hecticness of Bee Sern looking out for members to pay their fees, the way Annie looking for members to go for duties, the way Mi Kee helping out Gan and so on...All these things that you guys did really did made my life easier !!! THANK YOU !!!

LAZINESS

Fine night- I'm so lazy to do my revision though. So bad of me. Time is not much left. To my surprise my practical examination is on next week. *chuckles* Time REALLY flies. Arrrggghhh examination in college starts on next Saturday, so FAST ! I'm not really ready yet though. Oh gosh. I've wasted 4 hours doing nothing just now ! *great* I must read something before I sleep otherwise I'll be feeling damn GUILTY. I'm still having massive problems where my legs got bitten by mosquitoes and some unknown insects. *darn darn darn* Is it possible for THEM to leave me alone?


P/s- Sorry Joann don't mean to ticket you ! *giggles*

Lovely Sunday

Fine morning- Well when I woke up today I felt pretty much happy. *giggles* Maybe is due to the headache is GONE ! WITHOUT headache I can do pretty much stuffs with a GOOD mood. While waiting to watch my favourite series, I chose to post up new post in my blog. =)

By the way, thanks for whoever who bother to check out my funny blog often. Do leave me a message too if you guys/girls wish to let me check out yours. I will be glad to check it out. So after finish watching my shows I think got to start my revision since yesterday I'm not in the mood. Good day everyone ! =)

Time

Fine afternoon- Feeling so sleepy right now though.Just got back from INTI. This week got to finish up my assignment 5 because it will be due next week. Is nearer and nearer to examinations really make me kind of headache !

Just wish to tell someone that 'time' is all we need. Take everything slowly. As I'm people who demands much I think I just need more time to certain my heart. I want someone who can physically and mentally compatible with me. If I got someone who just only own one I will hesitate pretty long. I think just like what I'm doing now. I'm a person who will really go for what I want to get. Even though sometimes it seems to be a little weird but I will still do that if I feels that I'm right and doesn't harm anyone. If I want to get something I'll make sure I MUST get it. People calls that as STUBBORN. Perhaps you have the point saying that I have something that I can't let go yet. But I'm pretty sure what I suppose to let go I've already did it. Well as I said I just want to sure I met the right one before I'm making any decision. Grant me more time and perhaps I'll have a clearer thought of what myself REALLY wants. *giggles*

I told you that you deserve a better one because I felt that I don't deserve you. Not because I'm not good or what is just that don't have the confidence to be a good one. I'm hard to convince because the things I went through before this somehow made me view life in a different angle. I should balance everything up before things got messy again. Sorry for letting you to feel so *toot*. I won't be getting tired to see you but sometimes I just need time to think and figure things out. I'm learning how to control my emotions so don't feel bad when I am being emotional alright. None of that is your fault. If you do feel bad I'll be even feeling more bad. So just let it flows naturally and sooner or later I hope we can get what both of us wants.

is OVER

Fine evening- Sorry everyone for not updating my blog. Too busy preparing for my test. Well the test that I 've been most worry had finally completed ! I'm soooo RELIEVED... Just hope this test can be better compare to the first one. I'm so tired feel like sleeping but there's a function going on around my block which including BLASTING the music !!! *sigh* I want to have some REST seriously. But I just don't know when I can have that rest. *chuckles* Well got a little sad since can't practice drum tonight tomorrow sure play out some weird beats. *giggles* Anyway, the test that I had today somehow reflects me the day I'm going to have my practical exam. *worry* As days goes by I started to question myself over and over again. WHAT I REALLY WANT?

Sleepy ~

Fine night- Well today I woke up pretty late though. Because I worry I can't catch up the series that is going to air around 1pm.. *giggles* Well I'm suppose to go through the notes that I jotted down for tomorrow's presentation but my mind got distracted somehow. *great* Later tomorrow screw up in front of everyone. I worry I'll take things for granted though. I worry I'll be spoilt. I worry I'm going to screw up in my examinations. I worry almost every things. *sigh* Suppose to have some herbal drink today but my mom forgot to cook it and I only realized that when it was too late. *darn* And I forgot to bring some fruits back to hostel as well which makes me have to use own money to buy when I want to eat fruits. I'm SOOOOOO sleepy when *someone* is not talking with me. Guess shall sleep early tonight. =p

Oriental Crystal

Fine afternoon- Well today I went to one of the hotel in Kajang for hi-tea with my relatives as well as my mom. First of all, the food there is not really that tasty. Actually I'm not suppose to blog this since my aunty said we shall give people chance to improve but anyway if we didn't voice out how are they going to improve? We reached there about 12 plus and went off about 3 plus. Within these hours there is only ONE table is having hi-tea over there which is us.. My goodness ! But anyway mom did bumped into her old colleague and somehow I might have part time job opportunity over there this coming november. *giggles* But anyway I was like thinkng to work at stock market company around Metro Point but will see how after I've completed my short semester. Real broke recently. When I go through my expenses I got a big WOW !!! *chuckles* I'll still have busy week ahead where I got one presentation, one assignment to complete, one test and one quiz. *darn* BUSY BUSY BUSY !!!

Tears started to fall

Fine midnight- What you said can somehow make me feel more confident yet I still have too many doubts in me. To be frank, for the old me, I think I've already did what I suppose to. As for now I become more and more weird in the sense that I become extra careful. The pain is really unbearable and I don't wish to go through it anymore. I am somehow tired for being left just-like-that. I'm really having a great confusion in my mind. I really impressed that you can made up your mind and be so sure that you found the right one. Really impressed. Examinations are around the corner plus my practical exam, I'm really really tense up. I just don't know what to do.. Tests can't score high marks, aural tests can't even remember the phrase that I suppose to sing. "great" May god bless me on both of the exams I'm having. Spare me some time. I miss you too.

3 in the morning

Fine midnight- Well is already 3 in the morning. I have approximately another 4 hours to sleep before get up and get ready to go for class. Right now my stomach is starving. *chuckles* Today really a bad start when my group was starting to do our presentation due to the CPU is not functioning. *Great* Called INSO staffs to check it out then after one and the half hour only they came. What the....? But we carried on earlier by using my room mate's laptop. =) If we're to wait for INSO people I don't think we can present though. Overall we did quite well as commented by Ms. Meerah. And after my presentation we went to check out our Marketing assignment where I ended up have to do some correction on my part in order to score higher marks. *sigh* And then went to have tea with Mr. Chan before heading back to my room and start with my corrections. Well I'm actually tired but FORCED myself to finish it. *giggles* Really got to sleep already !!! Good NIGHT !

Sleepless Night

Fine night- Well due to the long nap I had during this afternoon made me feeling fresh now ! *darn* I thought I suppose to be sleepy as in now but it seems that's not happening. I got a new blog today- close up to me. Which out of sudden I felt like creating that. *giggles* I'm having law presentation in another 11 hours. Is been a while since I did a presentation. So got some unexplainable feelings. Today seems to be a pretty quiet night though. Besides having slides on my mind, I'm still thinking the things that you've said. Think as in *analyzing* it....But somehow I just don't understand where's all the confidence that soojin once to have. I learned to move on but I still need time to accept and CARRY ON my life. =) I'm pretty demanding as in those small little details of myself and others. As time goes by I'm starting to believe Virgo is somehow a perfectionist. *chuckles* The phrase *distance do make the heart fonder* I did see it before, somewhere...

In the middle of my maths revision

Windy night- Well I'm doing my maths revision for tomorrow test which I still stucked in the same chapter for the last hour. Today steven's test I'm pretty sure I'm dead in it when the results are out ! Oh gosh really felt unsatisfied with my law test where i just got a pass though. *sigh* I'm seriously sucks in reading stuff but I'm also not good in calculation. So can anyone tell me what am I good in? Or at least can do a little better? I'm so sleepy right now yet still trying to stay up to flip through the notes. Today I had a great dinner !! Guess how much I ate.... A packet of rice+roti pisang !!! *chuckles* Then this is the main reason why SooJin is complaining she's getting fatter day by day.... I'm looking forward to go to the airport lepak with Joann. *giggles* should be after the final examinations I think since we're both busy right now. *grins*

I don't understand why must all the lecturers put most of the things in the same week. They think we're too smart able to cope with everything? *sigh* I just glad that *someone* reached safe and sound...=p I'm looking forward to comment on the *adventure* thingy...*giggles*

Compatible?

Cloudy afternoon- This is something that I found in some website due to my laziness to continue my revision which turn out to be quite interesting to have a look in it.....

Aries and Virgo can seem like total opposites. While Aries is dominant and aggressive, Virgo is detailed-oriented, quiet and patient. It is very differences, however that can teach Aries and Virgo so much. *chuckles* Wow I was shock that Virgo is a quiet and patient person. *giggles* Aries is ruled by the Planet Mars and Virgo is ruled by the Planet Mercury. Aries wants to rush out and fight without wasting time preplanning or strategizing. Conversely, Virgo wants to analyze everything and work out all the details before acting. These are such opposite approaches that strife can result. Both Signs must make a conscious effort to learn from one another's method rather than letting their partner's natural rhythm bother to the point of distraction.

Aries is a Fire Sign and Virgo is an Earth Sign. Where Aries is all fiery impetuosity, Virgo is grounded practicality. Virgo weighs all the options before devoting any serious effort, while Aries simply sees what they want and dives in! This is true both in career and in personal relationships -- which can be something of a stumbling block. If Aries has decided it is Virgo they want, they might be frustrated for some time to come, waiting for Virgo to make up their mind about whether the relationship is a good idea.

Aries is a Cardinal Sign and Virgo is a Mutable Sign. Virgo doesn't need to be the leader or the boss; they're glad to follow another's suggestion once they decide it's a viable one. Aries, on the other hand, wants to make those suggestions -- every time. This is a beneficial dynamic if these two Signs are working as a team toward a common goal.

What's the best aspect of the Aries-Virgo relationship? Their great effectiveness as a team -- business or personal. Their personalities, opposite in so many ways, make for a highly complementary relationship

Wondering how true is this thing.... =)

Feeling not-so-good

Fine midnight- I've been diarrhea on and off since I came back from Perhentian Island. My goodness the feeling of nausea plus diarrhea seriously made me felt so uncomfortable. Even though feeling sort of bad, I still putting attention on what I need to study for moral test. *sigh* I just don't understand why people who create those theories can't explain things in a clearer manner. All the words or maybe the structure of the sentence are hard to understand. Perhaps my English is not good enough to understand what it really talks about. In the state of confusion I am thinking what will going to happen on Monday during the test. *sob* I just don't wish to flop for this subject. Got to continue my revision though. =( Besides thinking on my studies and practical exam, still thinking what to do on the other matters. Perhaps I've been too rational. *clueless*

As been promised

Get Ready to the AIRPORT !

I'm high up the sky ~~~~



Just love this picture....~~


Sea view?


Funny lamp post in Kuala Besut. (so short)



Fishy fishy ~~


Waiting for the sun to set !



MAS called this as BREAKFAST !






Can't see sunset so capture the clouds instead !




My breakfast !



RM 1200 !!!!! Due to Air Asia freaking sucks SERVICE and MANAGEMENT !!!!


Get Ready to check in =p


While waiting for check in ~~~





Suppose to snap this earlier but i snap it on the day i'm leaving. =p


There are people staying in this tiny house !!!


HAppy Family



=p


*sweet*





Malaysia "Dolphins".....Is not easy to do that !


Bye TURLE ~~




After sunset discovery !!



My brother arts work...=p


*Souvenir*




Starting point of the jungle trekking.


snorkelling


you dare to pee pee here?


william at the back, me and toh...=p


me and toh....


Graveyard- brandy, whisky, gin, vodka, rum, tequila, pernod, triple sec, guinness stout....



XXX, me, bubu manager,william...




buddies (william & toh) ~~


william and me.

Bartender Alex and me


Us again....


Mai tai- malibu, light & dark rum, triple sec, oranger juice, pineapple juice, lime and grenadine....



Long beach ice tea- vodka, triple sec, rum, gin, coke, orange juice, lime, and syrup....


Margarita- tequila, triple sec, lime, mango, papaya, watermelon, banana


I'm not drunk....=p



The island where i spent 3 days over there....


Before entering the island !



Sis, randy poh, me and mom.


Us in the speed boat !


Guess what's that thing for ~~


Actually there are still a lot of pictures but I'm too lazy to upload though. So feel free to visit my facebook then you can view from there....Basically, the trip was fun and pretty short indeed. It'll be nicer if can spend longer time in there. If there's a chance to go there again i definitely WOULD ! Just love sitting at the beach doing nothing but just listening to the sound of wave. Oh yea the not so nice part of the trip was that the incident happened in LCCT. What a bad experience.. We're having our breakfast in Mc D before departure but we've already checked in. Then when we went in to wait at the departure hall, the plane was GONE ! The fella said he already did announcement for twice yet we didn't hear anything. What a shame to the management system in Air Asia. Suppose to inform that we should wait at the departure hall 30 minutes earlier instead of 10 minutes. We followed exactly what it is directed yet this was the outcome we got which is wasting another 1200 to buy new tickets in MAS. Holy Shit. Actually my mood during I'm writing this blog is freaking BAD. So Sorry if this blog is not as expected by you all....