Changeling

Fine night- Well I just got the chance to watch last year's movie as title mentioned. I thought this was some normal one and a half hour movie. But to my surprise, as I watched the movie, it slowly makes me realized a lot of stuff. The hidden meaning of this movie was really meaningful. What a mother can do for their son is really unimaginable. Huge sacrifices are made just for something that the mothers believed in. Those who are not mothers could say stop being so stubborn and move on with your life but for mothers they will still depend on the little HOPE that they have. This is really an inborn mother spirit I guess.

I just done with my STA test today which I think there are 4 marks gone ! *sigh* And MY DEAR lecturer said 'you larh didn't study'...OUCH, shooting me in a so direct way...! but SIR, I DID study though ! Next week I'll have a debate and a test ! Oh gosh is already week 8 ! *scary*

Possibility for me to take International Business is slightly higher now as compare to finance. I'm quite attracted with the internship provided in INTI-UC program whereas for UH program there will be no internship. People are worried that INTI-UC program doesn't have recognition as high as UH program but as far as I'm concerned INTI-UC program does offer dual certificates though. I got to know on my average for my previous semester and it was really a disaster. *sigh* This semester I got to do well in order to make it at an optimum level again. Wish me luck, people !

After the final thought

Stuffy noon- These months been a pretty struggling month for me in most of the way. Things are throwing to me as if I'm superwoman ! Sorry guys got to use this kind of example ! I got two tests and one assignment due next week ! Seriously yesterday was a speechless day for me though. Start with my presentation. After a dozen times of presenting, for the very first time I got to re-do my slides in the computer lab since my thumb drive couldn't retrieve the file. So sorry to my group mates for the minor 'heart attack'. And yesterday was the day I realized I'm a little late to do SOMETHING. Gosh ! Even though changes will be at any point of time, but it won't be the same anymore. I got a message from my DEAR FRIEND abroad which was another shocked thing for me. Out of no where I got that message and voila-that's it. I don't feel like explaining after what you've blurted out. I felt much more relieved in some way. Is just that the burden has just disappeared ! The decision I made last year was a pretty good one I assumed. To someone: I rather you have no feelings for me after few years from the day I told you we should remain as friend, then started it and ended it in a harsh way. You're my mind reader, remember?

With all kind of friends I got sometimes it is so hard to justify which one of them is a truthful one to share with your personal problems. I got those you tell them now, and the very next minute the whole gang will know about it. And with what I've talked with WWS, if there's anyone would ever came to know about the content then I shall say you're just the same ! I don't mind to bear the embarrassment if there is, but make sure it is worth for me to do. Would anyone kind enough to leave me some guides? Things are getting out of my control. I just don't know why I got the guts to tell you !

I'm Just in the mood

Fine midnight- I was sitting in my cozy room with an unexplainable mood that I feel like blog it out. This whole week I was procrastinating with my work. And I got to start on my CSC work real soon as I left 2 weeks time to complete it. I was rather pissed off that there are at least two classes to be replaced soon. And these two weeks I've found back my long lost interest-watching basketball match ! Reminds me of so many good old memories !

This week is not a pleasant week for me as well. I started to have some so called decision on Monday and everything was back as before on Tuesday. After I reviewed the meaning of putting it on hold. Within this few days I got constant headaches, nausea and drowsiness ! My friend asking in a joking manner 'are you pregnant?' ! *sigh* I stunned there a moment before I could grin a little. Today I got another so called decision and talk with the person involved. He was disappointed and moody after he got what I've said. But it doesn't really matters to me as I got the right to voice it out. Stop complaining to me about your situation over there instead you should approach the matter in a less complicated way. I can't help a bit on any of your complications. The very first day you made that decision I think you should able to know these are few of the consequences. People might say I'm being bad and inconsiderate enough but do not judge me when you don't know the whole truth !

I just got the instinct that everything is not going to be the same anymore. As a human I think we should know how to give and take in our life. Things are not always worked as it planned. I'm ready for anything throwing to me right now. Wanted to thank the someone who recommended great songs to me whenever there are some ! The moment you played out the song from your mobile phone to me I still can recalled. Perhaps the timing is not right yet. I bet if both of us still got the fate and chemistry when you're back from abroad, we definitely won't be just friends.


I left exactly 8 hours to rest before I'm heading out to Cheras. I guess I should hop onto my cozy bed...!

P/s: Thank you for people who are constantly reading my blog. Is not the matter of how many visitors I got. I just felt so blessed that there are actually people who cares about me. I really appreciates that !

Update !

Fine night- Well been not updating for more than a week. Last Friday was really a good experience for me ! I went down to Phuture, a club next to Zouk K.L. without having any manager's contact number with me. And I was a little shy to get the number from Kevin, a friend of my bro-in-law. And I was a little regret as well for not getting to know him when I was in De-Lux. But anyway, I manage to get through after 'begging' the bouncers for letting me in as all my other friends are actually over 21 ! As usual, they hesitated to let me in at first, but after that I got in ! *hooray* Guess I was having a little fever not long after that which makes my back pain enough to get out of the club and look for a wall to lean on ! As the club doesn't provide any chairs if you didn't make a reservation. Overall, the music was average but the environment was good and standard. I realised there were a lot of foreigners from all over the place going to that club.

On last Saturday I'm suppose to go for a movie with a friend of mine, and he couldn't make it at the VERY LAST MINUTE ! I've missed the steamboat session with my buddies and he only told me he can't make it ! What a day ! Anyway I still joined them for the bowling session! And till now my dear little friend still didn't realise I was actually a little pissed off that he being so irresponsible for not replying the message I sent to him on the next day ! Even though you're sick I bet you're not that sick till you can't press your phone AT ALL !

Sunday was a little scary for me ! I drove back to INTI as usual but the unusual thing was it rained heavily till I could hardly see the road ! I crossed over to the road side divider when I was turning left without realising I'm actually loop sided to the left ! *sigh* I just got to be extra careful next time. That's for now ! I'm excited for this weekend as I'm going out with my friends! See, told you Soo Jin can't stick still at home ! Family and friends are my top priorities ! Without them I'm nothing at any point ! Love you all to the max !