Hot weather !

Fine afternoon- AS usual I was planning to upload some pictures to this post but it was not successful though. The weather for now make me so moody!! I just had a cold shower but not long after that I began sweating again..*sigh* These few days were really miserable for me though ! On Sunday I headache for hours and vomited few times and on Monday I had a minor cut on my hand. Nevertheless, I still went out for movie ! *chuckles*

On Monday I had a nice lunch with my relatives and family in Noble House. Then at night I went to MV for a movie, Max Payne. Overall it was only an average movie but I'm sure this will be whole lot better than flight of the living dead. Practically I have less than 48 hours to study for my final yet I'm still sitting here doing nothing. This semester seriously doesn't motivate me at all. I don't know why that's happening but I hope what I get for the result wouldn't be THAT BAD ! Will be back after my final ends.. Good luck for all of you who are sitting for examinations and all the best ! Have a great day everyone...=)

Better

Fine midnight- I'm suppose to sleep at this timing yet I'm still awake just to post up something over here..So today I had my final test for this semester before next week final examinations. Today test I can assured myself that I'm going to flop ! WHY ? Thanks to my level of knowledge in Cost accounting. Seriously I get really confused with all those fixed cost, OAR,variable cost and etc. It seems that there's no particular term for that particular word ! It can be known as X, Y or maybe Z as well. *headache*

Today I was having my final class for my ENL too. Well I will surely miss and appreciate the way an old lady who is so dedicated to share what she knows. She's good overall is just that her style don't really compatible with the current needs' of the student like ME. *giggles* Today when I'm on the way back I started to feel nausea ! Once I reach home less than 15 minutes I've already lied down on my bed to get some rest!! At night, I went to night market with my buddies Kat and CS. Well I think that was our first time going to night market together !! *Wondering* Should get some sleep now...

After Few Attempts

Fine night- Well initially I wanted to post up pictures in this post but too bad the connection in my hostel doesn't allow me to do so. *sigh* I've tried a few times but still failed. So I think you guys should just check out my facebook for the latest pictures (Jessie's wedding).

Well she's one of my sister's friend. I know her brother since we were in primary school then recently I've been following my sister to her school mates gathering so we eventually are friends so she invited me for her wedding dinner..So nice of her...=) Well basically the food is better than OTHER hotel's food and the ambience was pretty good. Not forget to mention Jessie looked gorgeous in all her dresses ! I can assured you she's really sizzling HOT yesterday !!

I was a little pissed off on last Saturday since I can't online for the WHOLE day ! Well it was really the end of the world for me though. Well I think is a good thing also since I can accompany my mom to watch TV in the living room instead of facing the monitor whole day. There are always pros and cons huh? *chuckles*

I'm currently having stomachache ! I guess I ate too much for my dinner ! *giggles* Hopefully I don't diarrhea during midnight or something...God bless me....=p

Little toe

Fine night- Today I'm LUCKY enough to get screw in the morning and get a knock on my fourth toe which basically ruined my day ! My little toe is still in pain. Anyway, I went on with my initial plan no matter how the starting was. C supposed to tell me what's tomorrow's plan but till now he haven't contact me yet. Guess he forgot though. I suppose to have more time to practice since I got home yesterday but it seems that is still the same. I'm not that motivated. I ended up doing other thing after a short while I'm sitting there.

This afternoon after my lunch I went to temple. Didn't plan that at first but just feel like going . When I'm on my way to temple was already drizzling out there. There's many people still in the temple even though was already late afternoon. I reached home about 3 plus and have a quick shower before practicing what I'm suppose to. Not even one hour I started to get distracted and asked my bro to get out from my room so I can have some nap ! He got pissed off and get out...*evil grin*

My exam is just around the corner yet I still don't have the mood to get started. Oh Gosh ! As usual huh? SCARY !! I still have pretty much events for coming weekend as well as this weekend. Next Thursday I'll still have another test. My other classmates were wondering how come my DEAR lecturer put it on the next week which suppose to be a study week. Well I answered ' PIG doing things, what can you expect?'
WHooppss...

Lovely

Raining evening- I was watching some Singapore's movie (money no enough 2). I heard it was a meaningful movie. Well finally I have the time to watch it. With all the Hokkien I can barely understand if they speak too fast ! *chuckles* But overall I'm still able to understand. Some part is really touching !

Today I got back my finance's marks. Is sad to look how careless am I. Is still raining out there. I think I'm getting gradually better . Is that a good news?

Talents

Fine night- Just now Enkhzul sent me a link on David Sides who is so good in playing all the RnB and pop songs. The songs that you never think of can be played by using a piano ! That's my own opinion only though. Here's the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EH8mNdw4gTA&feature=user I think you'll select some other songs played by him after you've listened to this one. *wild guess*

P/s: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBohWU-DTH0&feature=user (STAN LEE must check this out)

Don't hesitate to check it out. I've checked out a young kid too ! Same age as Connie Talbot this girl, Emily Bear has some amazing talent in playing the piano. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vUx4t4W4eVY&feature=related
She can play Mozart's pieces in a-so-easy- manner. To be frank, how many pianist in this whole world can do that? *chuckleS* She composes songs too. May God bless this wonderful little kid.=)

So about me today, nothing much though. I thought I'm going to have a bad day since my friend was pissed off because of my fault ! During the class almost ends, she seems to be alright. *phew* Thank God because I'll feel extremely bad if she gets angry. I'm thinking A LITTE hard on what should I say when my mom calls. Don't be surprised why I got to think hard because we or maybe, I don't have much thing to talk about. Nowadays, I think I don't talk unless it is necessary. Well is it a good thing or bad? Am I changing to become some cool idiots ? *wondering* I think I should finish up my conclusion and have my shower. Good day everyone.

Confession

Cold night- Mom just called as a sign of she safely arrived. She went for vacation these two weeks made me have sufficient time to think what's really going on with me. Unfortunately, all the dilemmas I have couldn't come to a solution. I've tried talking to friends but the feedback I got was all the same thing that I've heard over and over again. As for now, besides answering questions they asked I don't think I have any topic to share with them. I'm not having hard feeling on them is just that I don't feel comfortable sharing my private stuffs with them anymore. Before this I'm so proud to tell everyone that I can share ALL my stuffs with my family but it turned out to be different now. I guess I'm so sick of getting analyzed and judged after I share what I thought is a happy thing to share.

I wish to tell them face to face that what happens nowadays are no longer the same as 20 years ago. The world is changing !! Or perhaps I AM changing! Seriously as I grow up, I felt that there are more and more doubts and dilemmas throwing towards me. Are all that challenges wish to test how flexible or patient am I? By the way I somehow feels bad when I have to answer NO if my mom is going to ask 'so did you miss me while I'm away ?'.. *ouch* I think it will hurts pretty much. Each week is killing me when I got to go back home and facing someone that I cared for but no longer can talk with...!

The other day A was asking did you feel lonely sometimes? I said OBVIOUSLY I do. My routine in hostel and home are just the same..In front of the monitor, attending classes, meals, and sleep. I wonder how much time I need so that I can be happy again. People usually will say 'YOU DECIDE YOUR OWN HAPPINESS' but am I capable of that? Everyday I wakes up and talk to the mirror saying 'BE HAPPY'. I think it helps somehow. I bet some of you may think only a fool do that ! Try it out when you're seriously unhappy and depressed. Who knows it will help a little?

P/s: I'm alright is just that I need a little more time to clear up my thoughts and be truly happy again. Sorry for acting like a 9 years old kid getting emotional at certain time. I don't meant to be in this way but something is just inevitable ! Have a good day everyone !

No motivation

Raining evening- As usual woke up for class today. But was a little different since I slept late last night. Went to Sanctuary for some chilling session since all of us are quite moody. C having cold war with his gf while me is a little lost here and there. Then after talking most of the things we eventually felt better ! I'm still stuck in my assignment as I don't have proper idea to do it. Ended up being moody and sleepy all the time. *sigh* Is still raining out there, which makes the weather so nice to have some nap !

Looking for answers

Cloudy evening- Yesterday we went to perform in Eastin Hotel for a birthday girl, Nisha who was celebrating her 20th birthday. I think this girl is pretty rich since it was just a 20th birthday but her parents can throw a birthday party in a hotel ballroom. And not to forget there were 20 cakes with different sizes. Too bad there's no picture for this event since my camera is not with me. I've been there before this but it was years ago when sister became her friend's model for a make up competition where they got 2nd place. *giggles*

I still can remember what I wore back then! A khakis, a lousy blouse and a SLIPPER！ＬＭＡＯ! Yesterday performance was a little rush since we only informed by Rachael on Monday. Rehearsal was on Wednesday then Friday we're ON ! I got so annoyed yesterday since we were scheduled near to the last part of the event and we haven't had our dinner ! Ended up Carin was asking some chefs behind the dressing rooms for some dessert and prawns ! That was nice and tasty except for the dessert since it was a little sweet for me.. Overall the dance was easy but when it's easy it'll prone to have more mistakes.And as usual Rachael was the one who we think was the best.

Today I had an unexpected call from P. I guessed it was just because she's looking for someone to have lunch with.. I'm so doubt what kind of person she is but still I'll treat everything/everyone with 'neutral' treatment. Sometimes we seems to have conflict sometimes we are alright and again sometimes I am 'isolated'. All these situations that I've been through thought me something, 'Just let it be'

I'm supposed to go out for a movie but ended up plan changed ! Well can't do anything and I should continue sitting in front of my PC and 'hang out'. Thinking hard what to have for dinner !!!

YOU made me disappointed

Fine night- Today was a tiring day for me as I woke up early but slept pretty late. After award presentation I drove all the way back to Kajang for rehearsal with others. After the rehearsal again I drove all the way back to campus. Just got so moody starting from the award presentation since I'm having headache. Today when we chit chatted on random things I just got the idea what kind of person are you. It might be wrong but most of it should be the correct one. Anyway, if what we said really occurs and you will react as what you said then I think I've made the wrong decision again. Started from last year's incident I think I don't really believe in what people said though even some of it may be true. I got no idea why that's happening is just that I don't feel comfortable to believe in people. People I refer here could be random but first instinct usually will be my guideline. But 'they' still thought I'm a naive kid who is unable to use my brain to analyse.
The other day my brother said to me , You're always like that, don't have own principles to follow and adhere to. I was stunned there thinking whether what he said was the right one? Or I'm just being too nice to everyone? And what's wrong of being nice to my friendS? I'm alright with everything as long as you don't cross over my limit. The definition of 'limit' can be varied among people. But I believe that my limit is flexible enough.

P/s: Hey YOU (a person who don't know the existence of my blog) no longer can distract my emotion ! I'm able to think a little different after the emo period last few weeks ! Is really not a big deal..From the first day I know you I've already got an idea how it will goes like. Stay tuned and see how Soo Jin roars... !

A good news or a bad one?

Cold night- I was previously writing and wanted to post up what had happened. But in the end, I posted up in my private blog. *chuckles* Out of sudden I just felt that way. But the title was the same one. In conclusion, Soo Jin has to make a bad decision again...! Which make me have mixed feelings about all the thing that's going on.I need to study for this Fri test but there's minimum time left for me to do that. Oh Gosh! I just got to work a little hard !

No Motivation

Fine night- Well I've been busy on facebook and MSN but I still haven't started to look for my research paper's sources yet ! *sigh* I'm just too lazy I guess ! But to be frank this is the most troublesome project I got to do so far. First of all, there's no specific PRINTED guidelines. Secondly, she just change her mind out of sudden and thirdly, she can't really remember what she said previously. But overall she's still good and fit to be a lecturer is just that the 'old type'. Final is just three weeks away ! Test on this Fri I haven't prepare a single thing yet ! Owh I just realized I'm actually so busy !! *chuckles*

Mom is in my aunt's house already. She's been busy shopping and chilling out there. But I think she should have all this kind of fun since she's been working so hard for all this year. If I got extra cash in the future I'll definitely sponsor her for a trip.
But who knows what will happen huh? I just hope I manage to get a job for nov and dec otherwise I can't buy the things I need. God bless me ~~~ Should start my work SOON...

刀郎 concert

Rainy evening- Yesterday went all the way to the Arena of Stars to watch Dao Lang's concert. Perhaps many of you got no idea who's this fellow but he really got a great voice when he sings. The concert was not as lively as Jay's concert but somehow it is acceptable though. Some of his songs' lyrics are meaningful even though when he sang it contain a little accent of those China people. Besides that, he expressed his gratitude on stage to all the Malaysians for helping the people in SiChuan earthquake. This dude seems to be a humble person. *giggles* I judged him through the actions on the stage where he performed. Got to go back to College now so can't write much. Stay tuned for the latest update of me in the coming post. Anyway who will bother about the latest update of me though? *chuckles* Have a good day everyone...=)

Reminiscing

Sunny morning- Before I fell asleep yesterday, I somehow looked out the window in my mom's room. Thinking back all those days where dad used to give me a peck on my cheek before he goes to work. I think that was a decade back. Or maybe more than that. To be frank, for a child who is missing his/her father during their growing up moment is really a loss for the kid and the father itself. Anyway this is somehow my own opinion only.

Yesterday sister,bro and I went out for dinner after that straight to Metro Point and met up sister's friends. We were eating a lot yesterday ! *scary*
Mom will reach Aunty Jessica's house tomorrow but not sure what's the time yet. I think today my agenda will be the same again- watching Ugly Betty. =)

The same story again.

Raining evening- Today I thought we can talked just like last time but it happened just the opposite. What you said in a joking manner somehow turned out to be a little mean to me though. My interpretation of what you said, 'No I'll have hesitant to bring you out, worry you'll get crazy again'...Thank God that I know what you all are thinking. That incident really takes a lot of time to let everyone get back into the same 'channel'. But I think even we're going back to the same 'channel' it will be so different. I declined a few times when friends asked to go clubs since I somehow sensed something awkward. So ended up the whole week I was staying at home doing nothing. My assignments made me headache. The weather has been so sucks ! Everything seems to be out of my control nowadays. So I don't bother much,just let it be. For someone who has no intention to be mean, is alright that you've said what you've said, I'll accept the fact that I might did something that you regard as unpleasant but it somehow making me to think differently...

All over again

Sunny morning- Just woke up about half an hour ago. I had funny dream again. It was really funny ! I forgot huge part of the dream when I woke up. But I just can sensed was a real funny one. These few days besides staying at home, I went to the airport, went to my aunt's house, and went to Connaught night market. SO embarrassing since I used the wrong highway ! *chuckles* I met my lecturer there when I was about to go back.

Is a great thing that my mom is enjoying at Sydney now. But poor thing is I got no good food to eat. *sad* Actually I do have alternatives but I just don't feel like doing that. It somehow already different when we met each other. Seriously not the same anymore. Maybe time can heal most of the thing. I still haven't touch anything yet since this week is my study week. Sad huh? Should start soon !!!