Yeehaaah !

Wow at this sudden moment I wanted to blog~! I'm extremely loaded with assignments which i call it as 'homework' nowadays. Sorry for people who actually drop by my blog now and then to check whether there's an update as I'm a little bit to lazy to talk about my life. Let's talk about where I've been in the last 6 months.

Sept-Dec 2010, The whole 4 months I've been doing internship as a prerequisite of my course. It's good though as I went to several interviews before I finally made up my mind which I wanted to go for. It's a totally different industry I've joined but I'm glad that it's a real eye-opener for me to know more. I've learnt a lot throughout the duration and sad to say working life is not as good as we think of. Whole lot of discipline and time management. People relationship wise, I guess I got to improve whole lot more. I got to know that not all will take you as you are and adjustment needed. 'Adjustment' here could be blending in to whoever you're talking to or just be not YOURSELF. You need to think THRICE before shooting out words. Well well, the 4 months were actually fruitful and keep me pondering on the values I always believed in. Most importantly, I think Honesty would not be the best policy in the workplace.

As for the first month of the year, it's been GOOD ! :D Cause I missed school life after 4 months of working. OH GOSH! I don't know what's going to happen when I officially start working. The month of February even nicer as I got to celebrate CNY and Valentine's day with my loved ones ! :D They are important to me and I'm getting more prone to home-sick as I'm getting older. Seriously people would laugh at me if I tell them I GET HOME SICK OFTEN OKAY !

These few weeks up to end of March I'll be going CRAZY with the workload hopefully I can pull it off nicely! The renovation noise in the hostel is driving me up on the wall as days goes by and hopefully I won't go down and yell to the reno workers telling them I NEED A BREAK!

Till then, take care everyone ! Stay healthy!

Holiday

Cloudy noon- Holiday for weeks already and basically didn't have much fun besides staying at home in front of the desktop and grow 'mushroom'. Occasionally going out with my sweetheart and that's basically the most fun I could have. Just got back from Viet yesterday and today night got to work already. I feel so lost mentally nowadays especially this coming weekend where I got to work in Jusco Cheras Selatan. Sometimes I just don't understand how can disorganize manage to survive on this earth ! I don't meant to offend anyone I just feel unease when I got to work with those people. Perhaps I just have to strengthen my adaptability level in order to get the most out of it.

I think is going to rain soon since I heard loud thundering sound. And I don't know what I got to do in this 7 hours before my work starts. I got a random thought sometimes wondering when a person tell you s/he loves you, do s/he really meant it? A big question mark here and there. In the latest trip to Viet, it makes me think that marriage and giving birth are really like a set of gamble session where you just put everything in and it could turn out to be a really good or bad one. *grins* Well all this kind of random feeling do come once in a while especially when I miss somebody ! Have a nice day people ! =)

Bored Saturday

Fine night- Holiday officially started last Saturday 4pm since that was the time I sit for my last paper. And the very next day I went out with my special one already. Well days passed and I just went for an interview at Captivate yesterday. Everything goes pretty well I would say and I got to call in on next Wednesday to check on my status. Seriously I've been a little worried to start work again in C Beach cafe. It's been a while since I last worked as a waitress and God knows what clumsy stuff I would do on the very first day.

Long holiday seems to be bored. I found that it was a little sarcastic when my closed one said so. Well I think I need to figure out something to fix it. People tend to say I can't pick up hints and yet they're giving me way too much but why not just throw it right in front of me? It's better to be sad for once than being tortured mentally. And people worry I might not accept it but instead of worrying then why not talk to me? It's been so tired to get ignored and yeah I am a really sensitive person, so what? I am just who I am and I don't understand why no one is willing to tell what's wrong with me. Just keep on saying 'I've changed", 'I don't understand' wouldn't help a single thing at all. Instead all that will just make me more miserable and screwed up. I think I just got to take the fact that people comes and goes.

Am I starting to get 'blind' or what? I become more and more less aware who's trying to play a game with me. Or I'm just too tired to even care of who's doing so? No point of reminiscing old time when it bring so much pain ! I love you all who stay with me when I needed you all the most. God bless you all !

First paper

Cloudy afternoon- Well tomorrow is my first paper for final for this semester. Time flies though. It was like so short ! I entered class on the first day of last month like some nerd since I got no friends or companions to talk to. The moment I stepped into the class, I was like 'Yeah I'm in the class and everyone take a short glance of me'. Oh come on, Soo Jin is not that shy type but still they make me feel awkward. So all I did was putting a grin on my face.

As of now, I'm much more bubbly in the class..Have a bunch of new friends which is so nice to me..I guess I just love to meet new people regardless of their races or background. It's so fun getting to know people's culture and stuff. Though I took 3 subjects this semester it's not that pressurized since 2 of it is about language. English and German. Well for English it's not exempted as this time it's equivalent to IETLS 6.0 so I must take it before doing my other degree subjects. As for German language, I think it's so fun ! At least now I have a little knowledge in German instead of zero knowledge before this.

Initially I am suppose to continue preparing notes for Saturday paper but the weather really makes me feel so sleepy. Too bad, I think I'm going to continue later with the notes later on ! *giggles*

Have a nice day everyone! Good luck for those who are sitting for finals !

As promised !

Fine night- I'll update my blog today so here I come. I'm officially on holiday now. Though there are only 2 weeks I'm sure I'll fully utilize it. My final examinations which had ended on 13 Aug 2009 has definitely been remarkable to me as it was not any usual final papers it was the four last papers that I'm sitting for to graduate in Diploma for Business Administration. Though people may not agree with the major I chose for degree but I think I'll probably will be good in it. Just hope my decision to major in International Business won't be a huge mistake. *grins* Through my personality, strengths and weaknesses I think International Business will suit me the best as compare to any other majors available in Degree courses.


The post that had been delayed for quite some time was the charity performance on 1st of Aug. It was quite successful I presumed ! I was so worried as I didn't attend the stage rehearsal since I'm away for the Sabah short trip. It caused me to have few days of insomnia before the performance. I even started to feel no energy at the moment I'm stepping on the stage for my first number for the night. It was really nerve wrecking but I think all of us managed to pull it through and did a great job.
So let the pictures do the talking.




Sister and Mum !






Me and Mandy ~



Final pose for Safari Dance~



Umbrella (spot me ! ) =P



Michael Jackson (Beat It)



Superb Teacher Celeste(Middle)



MJ of the night ! (Yim Wai Lup)














ME and RACHO !



SMELLY ~~



Candid ~

P/s: More pictures are available in my FB

Upcoming post should be trip to China ! =)

Changeling

Fine night- Well I just got the chance to watch last year's movie as title mentioned. I thought this was some normal one and a half hour movie. But to my surprise, as I watched the movie, it slowly makes me realized a lot of stuff. The hidden meaning of this movie was really meaningful. What a mother can do for their son is really unimaginable. Huge sacrifices are made just for something that the mothers believed in. Those who are not mothers could say stop being so stubborn and move on with your life but for mothers they will still depend on the little HOPE that they have. This is really an inborn mother spirit I guess.

I just done with my STA test today which I think there are 4 marks gone ! *sigh* And MY DEAR lecturer said 'you larh didn't study'...OUCH, shooting me in a so direct way...! but SIR, I DID study though ! Next week I'll have a debate and a test ! Oh gosh is already week 8 ! *scary*

Possibility for me to take International Business is slightly higher now as compare to finance. I'm quite attracted with the internship provided in INTI-UC program whereas for UH program there will be no internship. People are worried that INTI-UC program doesn't have recognition as high as UH program but as far as I'm concerned INTI-UC program does offer dual certificates though. I got to know on my average for my previous semester and it was really a disaster. *sigh* This semester I got to do well in order to make it at an optimum level again. Wish me luck, people !

After the final thought

Stuffy noon- These months been a pretty struggling month for me in most of the way. Things are throwing to me as if I'm superwoman ! Sorry guys got to use this kind of example ! I got two tests and one assignment due next week ! Seriously yesterday was a speechless day for me though. Start with my presentation. After a dozen times of presenting, for the very first time I got to re-do my slides in the computer lab since my thumb drive couldn't retrieve the file. So sorry to my group mates for the minor 'heart attack'. And yesterday was the day I realized I'm a little late to do SOMETHING. Gosh ! Even though changes will be at any point of time, but it won't be the same anymore. I got a message from my DEAR FRIEND abroad which was another shocked thing for me. Out of no where I got that message and voila-that's it. I don't feel like explaining after what you've blurted out. I felt much more relieved in some way. Is just that the burden has just disappeared ! The decision I made last year was a pretty good one I assumed. To someone: I rather you have no feelings for me after few years from the day I told you we should remain as friend, then started it and ended it in a harsh way. You're my mind reader, remember?

With all kind of friends I got sometimes it is so hard to justify which one of them is a truthful one to share with your personal problems. I got those you tell them now, and the very next minute the whole gang will know about it. And with what I've talked with WWS, if there's anyone would ever came to know about the content then I shall say you're just the same ! I don't mind to bear the embarrassment if there is, but make sure it is worth for me to do. Would anyone kind enough to leave me some guides? Things are getting out of my control. I just don't know why I got the guts to tell you !

I'm Just in the mood

Fine midnight- I was sitting in my cozy room with an unexplainable mood that I feel like blog it out. This whole week I was procrastinating with my work. And I got to start on my CSC work real soon as I left 2 weeks time to complete it. I was rather pissed off that there are at least two classes to be replaced soon. And these two weeks I've found back my long lost interest-watching basketball match ! Reminds me of so many good old memories !

This week is not a pleasant week for me as well. I started to have some so called decision on Monday and everything was back as before on Tuesday. After I reviewed the meaning of putting it on hold. Within this few days I got constant headaches, nausea and drowsiness ! My friend asking in a joking manner 'are you pregnant?' ! *sigh* I stunned there a moment before I could grin a little. Today I got another so called decision and talk with the person involved. He was disappointed and moody after he got what I've said. But it doesn't really matters to me as I got the right to voice it out. Stop complaining to me about your situation over there instead you should approach the matter in a less complicated way. I can't help a bit on any of your complications. The very first day you made that decision I think you should able to know these are few of the consequences. People might say I'm being bad and inconsiderate enough but do not judge me when you don't know the whole truth !

I just got the instinct that everything is not going to be the same anymore. As a human I think we should know how to give and take in our life. Things are not always worked as it planned. I'm ready for anything throwing to me right now. Wanted to thank the someone who recommended great songs to me whenever there are some ! The moment you played out the song from your mobile phone to me I still can recalled. Perhaps the timing is not right yet. I bet if both of us still got the fate and chemistry when you're back from abroad, we definitely won't be just friends.


I left exactly 8 hours to rest before I'm heading out to Cheras. I guess I should hop onto my cozy bed...!

P/s: Thank you for people who are constantly reading my blog. Is not the matter of how many visitors I got. I just felt so blessed that there are actually people who cares about me. I really appreciates that !

Is been different

Windy night- Recently I realized that you can't harm my feelings anymore. Wow that sounds a little great in some way!Finally I've fully recovered from fever, cough, flu and allergy which attacked me last week after the celebration of my best friend's birthday.I'm glad that I didn't faint down on the very happy moment or else I'm going to miss whole lot of fun ! This was the very first time I went to club with the whole gang and it was fun even I'm not feeling well at that time.

I wanted to thank Joann so much for sending me out to the clinic early in the morning!! The very touched moment was 'You should have called me earlier'...~woooo~ That was sweet and not to forget about Chee Seong too. I can't find any clinic when I was out with Joann at first so ended up CS fetch me to clinic around ten plus. I'm glad that this birthday boy on that day willing to send me out to clinic ! Thank you very much to both of you ! =)

I'm currently watching a good series of Hong Kong drama, Rosy Business. The characters and the story line of the drama are marvelous ! TVB is really improving drastically all these years !

Hot months !

Hot night- I just can't stand the heat nowadays. Is been quite some time since I last used my blanket ! Oh gosh ! I'll start to sweat again not long after I got my shower! This is extremely irritating ! *sigh* And I just read the newspaper and got to know that the current temperature will remain till September ! I'll be a dry corpse by that time. Time flies since is already second week of the semester already. The other day I felt so left out with the whole gang since I joined them slightly later. Maybe I was just too sensitive but God knows huh..

I can't wait to go back home! I think this phrase seems extremely funny and weird if it is coming out from my mouth ! *giggles* But yes I do wanted to go home for the exciting event coming up this Saturday. And I feel like going to the cinema really soon ! I want I want !!!

I am ALIVE !

sunny evening- After the mad week I got last week finally I'm fresh and alive to update my dead blog of my daily routine ! These few days I've been sleeping a lot till yesterday I started to feel blur and dizzy. And not to forget I've accompanied mom to go out to one of the dance center which I presumed it would be so bored yet I still went out. As expected it is bored with all those highly uncivilized people talking loudly and staring at you for hours. Now I realized Rawang has so much more to offer better than this. Wonder how the owner can survives and manage her business. When I'm so free now no one is there for me to get in touch with and when the semester starts people will start bugging me. seriously speechless though ! And now I'm a little sleepy so perhaps I should get a short nap and stay up late again tonight ! I just got to appreciate these two weeks holiday as much as possible since after this I got to start to have WAR with the subjects again. Time flies !

Beautiful morning

sunny morning- I've been awake pretty early today which was an hour ago ! Is another 48 hours before my very first paper starts ! I'm quite nervous though since there's two subjects in a day ! But I'm blessed since my revision is making good progression. Even I can't study for 3 to 4 hours continuously but at least half of it ! I was talking to one of my mate in Ireland a moment ago. And to my surprise, he's left Malaysia for 7 months ! When he told me I responded by 'are you serious'? Oh gosh ! Time flies huh? Despite I'm having finals, problems did not stop hunting me where my phone cannot be activated after i restored the settings. It seems that it require another type of authorized sim card to activate it! I was blurred and pissed off at that moment but anyway I'm still glad that my old phone is around. Well mom told me she's worried that she no longer can secure her job since the committee wanted to change company to handle the property management tasks. The moment I got her message I stunned there for a moment before I started replying. God bless us !

This is the very first time I'm in INTI that I can sense 'silence' and 'peacefulness'. The corridor outside my room is different with other days ! Guess my neighbors are not back yet or they are staying silently staying in the room to do some revision. I'm glad that my little diary over here can at least let me burst off or even jot down some happy memories since there's not much people that I can really talk to and understand my situation. I have ton of things to write but due to time constraints I'll do it after my finals..Good luck to everyone who's sitting for finals ~~ Have a nice day...

What a good weather

Fine afternoon- I love the weather right now the most ! Is been so hot last few days finally I can enjoy some afternoon without the superb hot sun ! I've just celebrated Pow Ping's birthday yesterday and it was marvelous ! The greatest moment of life is to enjoy. You can enjoy when there's good food and great buddies around ! Is been really long I did not celebrate with them ! And this year celebration should really make it HUGE according to one of my buddy, Phang Chun Kin (P.C.K.). The reasons behind of it are quite lame so I don't feel like telling. *giggles* I left another 11 days before my final examinations start. I'm not sure is it due to over working for all the course works and now I don't really seems to nervous. But nevertheless I'll do my revision soon ! I don't hope that I'll neither resit for any papers nor getting bad grades for it. Well I should believes that nothing comes easy. Good luck for all my friends who are sitting for finals ! =)

Here are some pictures of my girlfriend's birthday ! If you guys want to see more then kindly drop by my facebook profile. =) cheers ~

After completed all the courseworks !

Fine night- Relieved that I've completed all the tests, presentations and assignments. Life has been a little better yet stressful period will hit in another few days as need to prepare for finals already. I just left 10-13 days to get ready for the finals where the two BELOVED marketing papers are on the very same day. *sigh* I should start my revision pretty soon. Today's test seriously I've not been putting a lot of effort as I'm still pretty distracted here and there. I'm a little worry for my dear mum as the consultation of the doctor sounds a little serious. I just hope she can relax and does not get tense up easily. When I asked her what is going to happen after June since I'll officially not receiving any cash from my dad ! She just said WE'LL SEE HOW. By the given answer, I know she can't figure out anything yet and I don't want her to get worry yet I got no alternatives. Oh gosh ! My sensitive skin is hitting me again as I got all these rashes over me now. So itchy...I'll be sleeping soon before I get emo...Sorry guys I've been posting a lot of emo posts lately, I'm trying to be happy but I just need a little more time. Be patient ! =)

The 'first' phrase

Fine morning- Surprisingly, today ECO test I think I did better than my previous test. *applause* I was so worried when I slept last night since I didn't really study much but what to do since I'm so tired to get my brain functions I just hop onto my cozy bed...*giggles*

I've had a hectic weekend last week and is a total fun night I had on Saturday. I was glad that I can joined in that event ! I wanted to upload picture on that night but I haven't got the pictures yet so be patient everyone ! Is normal clubbing pictures BUT is a little different in terms of people I'm going with. =) When I had my breakfast just now, I was like 'testing' you by saying I need to buy something important and the first phrase you said have indeed proof to me that you're different from what I expected. Different as in negative side. I thought you could be a little more supportive as my buddy. But the very first phrase has already disappoint me. *ouch* I need a dose of reassurance and supportive assurance from my buddies not doubts and chaos. I takes friendship and understanding as the most crucial part in us, and I really really disappointed that you've blurt out something that you think there's no big deal but it means a lot to me. I'm not angry or being sensitive, no worries we are still BFF. !

Hectic week

Fine night- I've been quite busy the whole week since I managed to complete my last 2 assignments and 2 tests. Late night like now makes me think a lot of things that made me so emotional ! That type of emo which makes me feels like crying. *sigh* I'm so speechless now that my tears are rolling down my cheeks. I feel like talking to someone that knows me pretty well right now ! I still have an economics test this coming Monday and Operations Management test on Thursday. Oh gosh I'm wondering can I ever study for so many chapters for a test ! I have loads of things that I felt like burst out but where to start and how to start I'm totally out of idea. God bless me !

Busyness !

Fine night- I'm suppose to be busy these two weeks but hell no with what I'm doing and wondering here. I've completed my last two assignments and now all I got to do is start my revision for 4 tests which are coming on this week as well as next week. Since next week, I'll be busy back at my place, so I guess this weekend is so crucial for me to do some revision. But to study 8 chapters for next Thursday test somehow make me thinks, that's so impossible. And guess what the 8 chapters given, I don't really know what's mainly about even though the extra guideline has been given..I'm glad that I can finish my assignments ahead of time but I'm sad to know that I can't really ask my little brain to 'digest' the notes that I've been reading through..

This whole week it seems I can't get some 'alone' time with someone who is leaving pretty soon. As in so soon..It reminds me of what someone told me before. And this is the time both of us are going to lead the different path of our life. And I wish the someone good luck and all the best. Actually is been kinda emotional here since many people who are close to me are leaving me one by one. And it really feels so bad to adapt with it ! I cry myself to sleep all these night and I'm really really sad ! If not mistaken, Joann is leaving this year too which means I can't loiter with a good buddy for quite some time ! All close friends are leaving ~ Sad sad !

My two tests for this week seriously I'm going to flop it if I still can't concentrate on my revision. Maybe you guys will think,'come on what's the big deal'?..No worries you will know it when you have the same situation happen to you. I really really wanted to go out for a drink and a dance session ! I WANT IT BADLY ! That's my dose to at least let me feel a little better...HELP !

Do something you like or something you should?

Fine night- I've been doing quite a lot of thinking stuffs lately. As I'm hesitating shall I continue to pursuing a degree or do something for a job that I've been thinking since I'm young. Sometimes by weighing the pros and cons itself can tear me apart ! At first I was thinking I can take up a three days job for the coming PC fair but is just days before my finals. I'm worry I can't cope that's why I've gave up the chance to work. Which means I've lost an opportunity to earn some extra bucks. *sigh* Seriously I need to have a get-a-way real soon to ease all this kind of thinkings. I don't need an expensive trip but I think a good spot to clear up thinkings would do ! The very last time that me and Joann went to the airport seriously was a good one to talk things out! I think I shall call it 'the moment of reminiscing' ~~ *giggles*

Another semester to go to think what course that I really wanted to do for my degree. And I'm weighing the pros and cons whether to do IB or Finance...Actually I've already have a pre-decision on taking IB..Perhaps I need a little longer time to do the confirmation...Hectic week ahead next week where there are two tests and assignments deadline. This semester I seriously don't enjoy much with the workloads yet I still have to complete it ! God bless me ! Good night !

You shouldn't have said that to me

Fine night- After I've told you what's going on I somehow think that you shouldn't have said that indirectly harmful phrase to me. I take you as the closest friend I have and I didn't ask for much and even though I know you didn't really mean what you've said but there's possibility for misinterpretation to happen. And I'm glad that I just burst it in here to soothe my emotions. And while looking through the photos of my so called dad, there are a lot of mixed feeling haunting over me. He's so irresponsible yet he's the one of the involved people to bring me into this world. I'm not sure what I'm going to do after next semester but I'm sure I won't give up ! And you dad, you totally made your little girl frustrated and upset. You all may blame me for being inconsiderate and disrespectful but I got nothing much to say besides doing what I should.

I am trying really hard to balance up everything and I just realised that I'm not doing so good in balancing. The days are near and I hope you have a safe journey ahead and good luck for you future endeavors !

Pissed off morning

Fine night- Today my day started off with getting screw and ended up that particular someone did not apologize even though I think he should. Come on we're leaving in what century now? We are not studying in a military class so I think he shouldn't reacted that way. What happened today made me recalled the old memories when I was in secondary school. *giggles* Basically I don't mind he barked like a dog but what for? The circumstances were far more serious than you can imagined of. I'm wondering why that particular person did not finished up reading before screwing people. I'm so sorry for K as I've misunderstood what she written. Seriously I have yelled back if I'm still in secondary school. *grins*

And to another someone, don't take people for granted. You're busy with your stuffs, so do I. But somehow I think that's very nice of me to ask how are you and so but you didn't seems to appreciate any of that. That's good ! Wait till I say, hey you F**k off ! Basically the mixtures of every incidents happened today made me so screwed up where I skipped one class without reason for the very first time in these ten weeks of studying. That's why Chinese often believes that morning should not have any unpleasant situations where it might influence people for that whole day. Called me SUPERSTITIOUS as you wish . =)