Pissed off morning

Fine night- Today my day started off with getting screw and ended up that particular someone did not apologize even though I think he should. Come on we're leaving in what century now? We are not studying in a military class so I think he shouldn't reacted that way. What happened today made me recalled the old memories when I was in secondary school. *giggles* Basically I don't mind he barked like a dog but what for? The circumstances were far more serious than you can imagined of. I'm wondering why that particular person did not finished up reading before screwing people. I'm so sorry for K as I've misunderstood what she written. Seriously I have yelled back if I'm still in secondary school. *grins*

And to another someone, don't take people for granted. You're busy with your stuffs, so do I. But somehow I think that's very nice of me to ask how are you and so but you didn't seems to appreciate any of that. That's good ! Wait till I say, hey you F**k off ! Basically the mixtures of every incidents happened today made me so screwed up where I skipped one class without reason for the very first time in these ten weeks of studying. That's why Chinese often believes that morning should not have any unpleasant situations where it might influence people for that whole day. Called me SUPERSTITIOUS as you wish . =)

Privacy

Moody evening-I do think that the definition of privacy could be varied if I were to ask everyone. As for my case, what I require is just respect the time I spent with you and the details of it. You don’t need to do a report for M. I’m really so disappointed that no one bother on how I felt. They will just say so and I got to follow. For instance, “I don’t want you to stay up so late with THEM”. Other examples are, ‘it is different because you’re there with me not THEM’. I think is different because you can LOOK AFTER me including what I did, who I talk to, who I dance with, and etc. That’s the difference you meant? Or providing M a full report on what I did?

You told me before not to talk about your past to someone close enough to you but how come you’re telling every single thing about me to M? Is it just because 3 of us are family? Seriously, is a big no-no that you’re thinking like this. I’m able to tell to someone close enough to you about every single thing about you but the main point is, did I done that? I respect you as I believe that every human being have things that they wouldn’t like others to know. So why not you think on my side too? The way you’re showing concern is KIND OF wrong somehow. Wrong in terms of you didn’t ask me whether I like the way you’re arranging things. You just MAKE the decision and telling me that is LIKE THAT.

We’re creatures who got our own unique thinking and emotions. Just don’t be so selfish. You don’t like others know that you smoke, so as a sign of respect I didn’t tell it out. You don’t like your closed one to know that you’re once so rebellious so as a sign of respect I didn’t share that with anyone. I’m just a teen who often in the state of confusion so why don’t YOU all these adults do something as in change the way you approaching the teen. YOU expect me to think as I’ve already reaches 30 years old? They’re 1001 ways to show your concern. The way you’re using right now is hurting me instead of making me to have warm feeling. I got no idea why it is hurting because it just comes out from the bottom of my heart. May god bless everyone !

Rainy Day

Raining afternoon- Today as usual I went to class in the morning. Got a new girl joining us and she's good though. Struggling to catch up but at the end of the class when teacher asked whether she can cope she nodded and said yeah it was fun! Exactly the things that all the girls in the class said before. Actually plan to do go for my facial tomorrow since I've already did the appointment and to my surprise my sister said going back to Rawang tonight and the GREAT thing was I NEED TO GO WITH HER ! Then I complaint to my mom hope she can help me out. *giggles*

Is still raining out there though. When the wind blows towards me is really REFRESHING ! and making me to feel sleepy. I shall get some nap before I get more pissed off with my upside down plan.