The same story again.

Raining evening- Today I thought we can talked just like last time but it happened just the opposite. What you said in a joking manner somehow turned out to be a little mean to me though. My interpretation of what you said, 'No I'll have hesitant to bring you out, worry you'll get crazy again'...Thank God that I know what you all are thinking. That incident really takes a lot of time to let everyone get back into the same 'channel'. But I think even we're going back to the same 'channel' it will be so different. I declined a few times when friends asked to go clubs since I somehow sensed something awkward. So ended up the whole week I was staying at home doing nothing. My assignments made me headache. The weather has been so sucks ! Everything seems to be out of my control nowadays. So I don't bother much,just let it be. For someone who has no intention to be mean, is alright that you've said what you've said, I'll accept the fact that I might did something that you regard as unpleasant but it somehow making me to think differently...