Demotivated on the very first day !

Fine night- I just came back from having my dinner not long ago. Today was a total bad day for me I assumed. I don't have the excited mood to even go for classes yet I still went for classes today. And I'm officially broke after I've paid the extra 300 bucks of resource fee using my own pocket money. *sobs* These few days things been running around my head and make me had a disastrous sleep session ever. And I got no idea why this feeling is coming back to me again? It seriously haunt me over and over again which makes me can't really concentrate on things that need to be done. And these two weeks of holiday I still can't make up my mind on what to major in degree yet. All I'm thinking is how to fully utilize my SHORT holiday so that I can have a great start for this semester ! i don't think I got a great start for this semester though. How sad was that?

As time goes by, I realized I'm still turning in the same circle that I've been turning for quite some time. Thoughts and things that are in my mind I can't really figure out definite answer which is so distracting ! What am I thinking lately I hardly can't figure out myself. Oh yea maybe I'm being emo AGAIN ! well well who knows better than myself huh. Hard time is coming soon !

Hectic week

Fine night- I've been quite busy the whole week since I managed to complete my last 2 assignments and 2 tests. Late night like now makes me think a lot of things that made me so emotional ! That type of emo which makes me feels like crying. *sigh* I'm so speechless now that my tears are rolling down my cheeks. I feel like talking to someone that knows me pretty well right now ! I still have an economics test this coming Monday and Operations Management test on Thursday. Oh gosh I'm wondering can I ever study for so many chapters for a test ! I have loads of things that I felt like burst out but where to start and how to start I'm totally out of idea. God bless me !

Sports car+ Hot dudes= ?

Sunny afternoon- What you think when a sports car is driven by a handsome dude? And not even one maybe 7? At first I'm so glad that I might joining them up but in the end I just don't feel like joining. Well I guess if I join in I think I can go to somewhere I never been before and the expenses are covered ! So nice huh? But too bad I just don't have the mood to cancel off everything and just go like that. And I don't want to play for 3 days and 3 nights without having 4 hrs sleep at least. There are so many reasons for me to take the offer but well I've been quite steady this time after a short consideration and I declined. Perhaps the previous 'me' I'll cancel off classes to go to have some fun but now it doesn't work that way anymore I guess. I'm still particular on my garments and high heels where I don't like to loan to anybody,I just don't understand but each time it happens my blood will just 'shoot up' IMMEDIATELY ! Especially when I want it, and is not there ! God damn me, for being a disrespectful daughter but is this a challenge for me to overcome it?

Each time when I tried not to burst it out I can feel the 'inside' of me, feels EXTREMELY bad. Just like you're so pissed off and you need to smile and continue with your work. Oh gosh ! Please don't ever happen all this thing I can't take it for so many times and what my dad said it sounds so IRRESPONSIBLE to me. There's no difference where a chicken left all the chicks dying off. I know my examples are sucks but you will know what is it feels like when you're in my shoe. Oh gosh I seriously NEED A BREAK after a hectic week !

When confusion strikes.

Windy night- Till now I'm still questioning myself am I making the right decision? And I've been thinking it over and over again and it seriously do make me emotional easily..But this time I can more or less control it too. But deep inside me right now there's so much thing that requires me to think about. Everything happens for a reason? well this was what someone told me before and I seriously appreciate his appearance in my life. =) I admire your personality, knowledge and talents and I'm pretty sure there's someone out there who will really deserve to have you.

Besides being emo nowadays I'm being stressed up too. The same old thing again, fees...
I would like to thank Joann for being so so so good ! I really didn't expect you will say so, and I really appreciate it deep down from my heart. I am sure even friends who have the capability to do so they wouldn't tell me that. And I feel so blessed despite I am stress up and full with confusion in my mind. I hope all my friends around me can have a great year ahead with less problems to be taken care of. Soo Jin feels upset and confused yet she's trying to be happy and live life to the max !

Love all of you !
xoxo

the Sixth !

Fine evening- today as usual went to MPH to enroll for this semester, checked in for hostel and check on PTPTN loan for degree. Well it is a little tougher this time as everything need to settle through online. I will only submit required documents if they approve my loan. I did something 'bad' just now which ended up I'm suffering it now. I went through something and to my surprise I read something I shouldn't. I got a little shock when I saw it. Well I guess I'm right to be protective though. You're not as good as I thought. I don't need to feel guilty now if I did something which I will feel guilty before this.

This semester I'm not sure will be as hectic as the previous one but I'm sure I'll go through as best as I could. I'm thinking for alternatives on how to get the first payment for my degree. It is so near that it make me a little miserable to think of alternatives. Plus the thing I read through just now, it already made me moody and upset enough to spoil my mood. What the hell wrong with me right now? At one point I do really feel I'm blessed but at some other point I felt I was so screw up. Well well is just life. Have it's own ups and downs. I'm trying to go with the flow. *may god bless me*

Hectic But Enjoyable

Fine evening- Yesterday seriously was a hectic one for me though. I woke up and went to class. About 1pm, I went to Batu 11 to have a superb expensive lunch !!! We ate at those normal chicken rice shop and it costs around 32 bucks. The chicken rice over there is a little famous but I didn't expect it to be so expensive ! After our lunch, we went to Low Yat to buy a laptop for her cousin since I also need to buy a new earphone for my mp3. After we've settled everything we headed to Kepong as his cousin's cafe is there. Unfortunately, she's not there. *sigh* We went to Bukit Jalil for a little swimming session since both of us gained weight like no body's business. *chuckles*

We met some insane fellow at the pool. He kept talking to himself and disturbing other people as if he's mad or something. But I think he's quite well educated as he spoke in English. We went to Mid Valley for movie and dinner after that. Basically that was the first Saturday where I can did so many things. *grins* When I came home I'm still fresh. *surprisingly* Today as usual went to jazz class and I got pissed off early in the morning. Ended up taking cab to town. *toot* But I was lucky enough to get a cab in just 5 minutes time.

I'm really not in the mood to talk but someone kept asking me what happen which made me irritated and I just yell. *whoopppss* I knew that was so rude. I need to finish up the draft for my research paper and my Finance's assignment. But so far I did none of them. I'm looking through books just to find something suitable to write on. I hope I can finish it up on time though.