So sick of it

Windy night- I'm supposing to start working on my two last assignments which are going to due in 2 weeks time. But somehow I got so distracted perhaps I'm so tired till my brain can't function properly. I'm not distracted because of I'm watching dramas though. I'm distracted on many other stuffs which had been bothering me for a quite long time. And it was pretty obvious that I look different nowadays where I seldom will have a friendly smile on my face. I got to know it through the replied of one of the Facebook's notes. *sigh* Anyway I'm still trying my level best to start on my assignments so I won't have any problem when the due date is near. This month is really a crucial one for me in managing my precious time. I'm currently so sleepy where I wish I can just hop onto my cozy bed !

Owhhhh YES !

sunny afternoon- Well well i finally did it! I guess you guys will wonder what I want to brag about this time. And i want to say I've finally donated blood for the VERY FIRST TIME ! I've been hesitated for 5 semesters whether to donate or not as I worry I'll gained weight after that ! Which makes me selfishly consider for such a long time. Anyway,I'm happy and a little disappointed at the same time. I'm happy because I'm finally doing it and a little disappointed since is only 180ml ! I think that's the amount after taking out some for samples purpose. The target according to my weight was 350ml though. The nurse can't help much since she said my blood flow is slow and not willing to flow out. I was giggling there when I heard what she said. Since my blood flow was slow, I actually need 3 nurses to help me in the whole process. One need to keep pumping 'the thing' which will squeeze my arm hard enough to create pressures while another one is holding the packet where my blood is flowing into it to make sure whether the blood is entering or otherwise. The third nurse is tapping my arteries and adjusting the hose to see which position is the easiest for my blood to flow out. She even turned the 'blue thingy' to adjust the flow which made me feel the needle is turning here and there ! *scary* Anyway when the nurse asked 'Is this your first time' ? I replied 'Yeah' and she said no wonder maybe I haven't get used to it. And I felt a bit relieved since I thought is abnormal to have a slow blood flow.

After getting about half of the packet the nurses finally stopped everything and said it was enough and not to force the blood to flow out since it may cause my arm to become swollen. She asked me to rest a while and pressed the cotton firmly where they poked the needle in. While resting, the nurse told me my blood will expired pretty early as in 14 days since the amount of my blood is not enough to merge with the contents inside the packet which cause it to be imbalance. But she did said no worries we'll use it before it gets expired. Well after getting enough of rest, the nurse walk over with a plaster and a cream thingy. After she had placed the plaster, she applied the cream thingy too as my arm already started to swell. My arm felt numb for quite a while though. I asked my classmate, Yew Hong to take some pictures for memory sake. *grins*










P/s: Come on everyone, overcome your fear and help people by donating your blood.

Sports car+ Hot dudes= ?

Sunny afternoon- What you think when a sports car is driven by a handsome dude? And not even one maybe 7? At first I'm so glad that I might joining them up but in the end I just don't feel like joining. Well I guess if I join in I think I can go to somewhere I never been before and the expenses are covered ! So nice huh? But too bad I just don't have the mood to cancel off everything and just go like that. And I don't want to play for 3 days and 3 nights without having 4 hrs sleep at least. There are so many reasons for me to take the offer but well I've been quite steady this time after a short consideration and I declined. Perhaps the previous 'me' I'll cancel off classes to go to have some fun but now it doesn't work that way anymore I guess. I'm still particular on my garments and high heels where I don't like to loan to anybody,I just don't understand but each time it happens my blood will just 'shoot up' IMMEDIATELY ! Especially when I want it, and is not there ! God damn me, for being a disrespectful daughter but is this a challenge for me to overcome it?

Each time when I tried not to burst it out I can feel the 'inside' of me, feels EXTREMELY bad. Just like you're so pissed off and you need to smile and continue with your work. Oh gosh ! Please don't ever happen all this thing I can't take it for so many times and what my dad said it sounds so IRRESPONSIBLE to me. There's no difference where a chicken left all the chicks dying off. I know my examples are sucks but you will know what is it feels like when you're in my shoe. Oh gosh I seriously NEED A BREAK after a hectic week !

What else can I say?

Raining evening- Today I finally got to know the fact that my so called friend is in the same institution as I did. And I'm rather pissed off that he denied that when I first confronted him. That's why I was wondering how come there's two person that can look so alike? Oh gosh ! I can't think of any valid reason for him to pretend that we don't know each other. I've shared with another friend of mine which happen to know him as well, she was shocked and pissed off too ! Well I bet there should be other better ways to tell us he don't want anyone knows it besides pretending don't know us ! *speechless*

I'm suppose to have a test tomorrow but it has postponed to Friday since some of my classmates said there are a lot of chapters to study. Well I agreed partly on it since the chapters are quite lengthy and any part of it can come out for the test. Another part of me was thinking, we still need to sit for it no matter is on Thurs or Fri so why not settle it earlier? Anyway it was already set to be on Friday so no point bursting here now. But anyway I do appreciate that W asked me not to piss off. Maybe my 'aunty' haven't pay me a visit yet which makes me have quite a high unreasonable temperament.

Anyway I don't think I can manage to do five chapters of revision for the test ! Each part of it seems to have the possibility to come out as a question. *sigh* Why can't he be a little precise ? What a RESPONSIBLE fellow. Should get my mind started !

Stress + Assignments + Tests + Coughing

Fine night- I think my title can somehow summarize what I want to share about. This whole week I've been so busy with my work and one of the macroeconomics test which I've screw up most of it. Can't blame anything as my preparation is not sufficient enough. Upcoming tests are operations management and retail marketing. My life these days seems to be really immune by all these workloads I'm having. Well I consider myself as lucky enough if I'm comparing with other people who are taking courses like law or any other similar difficult courses.

I'm coughing again ! I just don't understand why all this sickness can't leave me alone ! And god damn the ants ! Bit my thigh which makes it swollen and pain right now. I am suppose to do some revision right now but I've started to feel sleepy. Oh man Soo Jin is getting lazier and lazier as days goes by. *giggles* When I think about the assignments due date it even make me more demotivated to finish it up ! oh NOoooooo !!!

Dead busy

Cloudy evening- These few weeks I'm so busy with the assignments that are throwing to me ! Really hectic compare to last few semesters. Too much work to work on anyway, which causes unnecessary stress for me since I need to finish it on time so that I won't cause any delay to my other group mates. Frankly speaking I just got to know that the 60% coursework marks are actually suggested by the students. *sigh* It seems that 60% on coursework really helpful but the workload has been doubled up. *speechless*

This year it seems that so many friends and closed ones are leaving though. And I'm a little unhappy to know that my dad's leaving too. Well I wonder after May, is he not going to pay any single thing for our living expenses anymore? And he expects me to stop my studies and work first. Well seriously I am so pissed off when I heard about this because if I stop now and work first, who can assure me when is the time that I'll earn enough money to continue on my degree? And if I stop at diploma level, I need to pay up PTPTN loan starting 6 months after I've stop. Is that a good idea after all? These few weeks I'm still thinking over a better solution or maybe alternatives to all this.

And right now I'm having some kind of mixed feeling that distracted me on what I'm doing. I just got to focus I guess !

All in progress..

Fine evening- Hey everyone sorry for not updating my blog for so so long ! Frankly speaking I've been a little lazy to update and of course I'm busy as well. After enjoying for weeks I think this is the time to get back on track and start to work on my assignments. So far I've started Operation Management both individual and group assignment. Besides that, I've started a little on my retail marketing assignment. Well well I'm really lucky I took 4 subjects for this semester since there are 2 assignments for each subject starting from this semester for all diploma students. Oh gosh seriously need time to cope with the workload. But by the time I'm able to cope I've completed diploma. *speechless*

With my current health condition, is really a little hard for me to stay focus to continue work on my things. I got fever last week and this week I'm hit with something new- coughing. And I really hope I can recover by the time I'm back to INTI next week. But it seems that it won't happen..This year Chinese New Year is really an enjoyable one for me as I got the chance to visit all my close friend's house. From the first day of Chinese New Year I've started going out every single day non stop. I guessed that's what make me sick. So I've stayed at home and rest on Sunday and get ready to go back INTI.

Anyway I got to start doing my work again, which is so boring ! I'll update my blog pretty soon again hopefully.. *giggles*

Have a wonderful year everyone !!
love you guys and girls out there who had been so good to me !
~xoxo~